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Post by indigocrow on May 6, 2022 3:19:43 GMT 10
I was abused as a child and teenager. I was abused beyond what any word could ever describe in the entirety of infinity. It was violence, it was neglect, and there was also emotional abuse. I almost died. It is hard for me to talk about. Very, very hard.
I have realized that I am here to help others who were abused. I could help you with your feelings. Using my experience, I could look into your situation and help you with the difficulties you just could not overcome.
Love is infinite and love was always there for you. When you thought that love did not see you, love did.
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Post by samantha9 on May 6, 2022 6:24:35 GMT 10
I have to tell you that what you have written has made me angry. You have stated that you find it very hard to talk about your own abuse as a child so how can you possibly help anyone else when you can't even express your own feelings. You can't put the feelings of others before your own and offer to help in this way. Express your own feelings first and forget about helping anyone else until you have healed your own feelings that you find 'very hard to talk about.'
Express what you feel about your own abuse as a child, find the words by asking God to help you express all of your denied and supressed childhood pain, all of those feelings that you find it so hard to talk about, very, very hard, as you have stated. I don't want someone helping me who hasn't yet helped themselves, look into your own situation and ask Mother and Father for their help so you can know the truth of your denied and supressed childhood feelings that you have not yet overcome.
Everything you have written is full of denial of your own denied and supressed childhood feelings. You can't jump over your own pain to help someone else with their's.
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Post by indigocrow on May 6, 2022 15:48:48 GMT 10
I have to tell you that what you have written has made me angry. You have stated that you find it very hard to talk about your own abuse as a child so how can you possibly help anyone else when you can't even express your own feelings. You can't put the feelings of others before your own and offer to help in this way. Express your own feelings first and forget about helping anyone else until you have healed your own feelings that you find 'very hard to talk about.' Express what you feel about your own abuse as a child, find the words by asking God to help you express all of your denied and supressed childhood pain, all of those feelings that you find it so hard to talk about, very, very hard, as you have stated. I don't want someone helping me who hasn't yet helped themselves, look into your own situation and ask Mother and Father for their help so you can know the truth of your denied and supressed childhood feelings that you have not yet overcome. Everything you have written is full of denial of your own denied and supressed childhood feelings. You can't jump over your own pain to help someone else with their's. Just because it's hard for me to talk about does not mean that I have not helped myself. I have. So don't worry. I never said I had not helped myself, that's an assumption that you just made and I forgive you for that assumption. It's okay. But I really have helped myself. |
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Post by samantha9 on May 6, 2022 18:21:48 GMT 10
Ok then, let's talk about it!
1. How has the abuse that your parents did to you made you feel?
2. Tell me about the hate you must feel for them!
3. Don't forgive me for my assumption, tell me how what I wrote made you feel!
4. Your parents hated you and didn't care what they did to you so tell me how that feels to be so hated by your parents?
5. I want to know why your abuse is hard to talk about, Why?
6. What feelings does your abuse bring up that makes it so hard to talk about?
7. Forgiving me is yet again denying your feelings about what I wrote, I want to know your feelings, how did I make you feel?
8. I want to know how you have helped yourself heal your childhood abuse, what did you do?
9. If you have helped yourself then why is your pain so hard to talk about?
10. Do you consider yourself to be healed?
11. Why do you feel you want to help others?
12. Do you use forgiveness to cover over and deny your hate and anger at your parents?
13. Have you ever felt hate and anger at your parents for doing what they did to you and not loving you but wanting to kill you?
14. Why do you believe you are a Starseed?
Let's talk!
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Post by samantha9 on May 6, 2022 18:43:39 GMT 10
I want to know about you though your feelings.
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Post by samantha9 on May 6, 2022 19:02:07 GMT 10
You also say you could help us with our feelings and look into our situations, can I ask, how do you do this, what do you do to help others? How do you help us with our feelings?
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Post by samantha9 on May 6, 2022 19:32:29 GMT 10
More keeps coming up about this so I am going with it!
I want to know why your feelings are so hard to talk about if you say you have 'Helped yourself'. If you have healed your pain about your abuse then shouldn't it be easier to talk about? You haven't said that you have healed your pain but you have said that you have helped yourself! I am not sure what you mean by 'Helped yourself'.
You say in your first message that "It is hard for me to talk about. Very, very hard." then that tells me that the pain is still in you and it is to hard to talk about still.
I never even realised that I had so much pain, my parents made me believe that I was loved and the truth that I wasn't loved has been so hard to accept or even admit that I was unloved by my parents, but as I felt my way through it all, I found it easier to express, as I went through the feeling of it all, I found the only way to heal it was to feel it and express it, so I really knew the truth of my unloving childhood. God has helped me all the way, even when I express my hatred of God, they still help me unlike my physical parents who would have been beside themselves if I expressed my hatred of them, to them!
In what way have you helped yourself, what do you do to heal your feelings?
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Post by indigocrow on May 6, 2022 23:58:35 GMT 10
Ok then, let's talk about it! 1. How has the abuse that your parents did to you made you feel? 2. Tell me about the hate you must feel for them! 3. Don't forgive me for my assumption, tell me how what I wrote made you feel! 4. Your parents hated you and didn't care what they did to you so tell me how that feels to be so hated by your parents? 5. I want to know why your abuse is hard to talk about, Why? 6. What feelings does your abuse bring up that makes it so hard to talk about? 7. Forgiving me is yet again denying your feelings about what I wrote, I want to know your feelings, how did I make you feel? 8. I want to know how you have helped yourself heal your childhood abuse, what did you do? 9. If you have helped yourself then why is your pain so hard to talk about? 10. Do you consider yourself to be healed? 11. Why do you feel you want to help others? 12. Do you use forgiveness to cover over and deny your hate and anger at your parents? 13. Have you ever felt hate and anger at your parents for doing what they did to you and not loving you but wanting to kill you? 14. Why do you believe you are a Starseed? Let's talk! That's a lot of questions.  Let's start. 1. It made me feel like I fell into a black hole, but worse. 2. I of course hate my parents for what they did to me. It is beyond words to express how angry it has made me. 3. I'm sorry, but I don't remember how it made me feel. I have a photographical memory but not all details are "remembered" in that sense. So I may forget some things I have felt during the day. 4. It feels beyond infinitely painful to be hated by my parents in that way. 5. Because it involves a lot of "personal" stuff that can be used to identify my identity. And it does take me to a dark place. 6. Sadness (the dark place) and fear (my identity). 7. I don't remember, sorry. 8. I spoke to myself, and my friends. I spoke to my deepest, inner heart. And then also to my friends who helped me cope with the emotions. 9. Because even though I am helped, I can still be in fear of someone finding out about my identity or being taken to a dark place talking about these things. 10. I consider myself to be helped but not healed. I can never heal from this, even if I so was helped infinite times. 11. Because others deserve to know some of my "teachings" which is to enjoy life for what it is and what you have right now in the moment. 12. No, I don't forgive my parents. 13. Yes, of course I have. 14. Because I had a lot of paranormal experiences and I felt that the "signs" of being a starseed applied to me. Thank you for your questions, they were very loving. I appreciate your concern. |
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Post by indigocrow on May 7, 2022 0:01:54 GMT 10
You also say you could help us with our feelings and look into our situations, can I ask, how do you do this, what do you do to help others? How do you help us with our feelings? I speak about the moment and finding joy in the moment. For instance: let's say that something bad happened to you, you should view it this way "at least it wasn't as bad as x", where x = something worse than your worst fear or nightmare. If you say "at least", then you will find the joy of the moment. What we have right now is what we should be grateful for, even if we have as little as nothing. Because what if we had something SMALLER than nothing? That would be worse. So, this is one way of thinking in life. I am not saying that you're forced to think this way. It's just one way of viewing things that could help ease the pain. |
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Post by indigocrow on May 7, 2022 0:05:15 GMT 10
More keeps coming up about this so I am going with it! I want to know why your feelings are so hard to talk about if you say you have 'Helped yourself'. If you have healed your pain about your abuse then shouldn't it be easier to talk about? You haven't said that you have healed your pain but you have said that you have helped yourself! I am not sure what you mean by 'Helped yourself'. You say in your first message that "It is hard for me to talk about. Very, very hard." then that tells me that the pain is still in you and it is to hard to talk about still. I never even realised that I had so much pain, my parents made me believe that I was loved and the truth that I wasn't loved has been so hard to accept or even admit that I was unloved by my parents, but as I felt my way through it all, I found it easier to express, as I went through the feeling of it all, I found the only way to heal it was to feel it and express it, so I really knew the truth of my unloving childhood. God has helped me all the way, even when I express my hatred of God, they still help me unlike my physical parents who would have been beside themselves if I expressed my hatred of them, to them! In what way have you helped yourself, what do you do to heal your feelings? 1. It is more than an infinite pain, so it never gets easier no matter how much effort I put into helping or attempting to heal myself. What's infinity minus one? It's still infinity. 2. Yes, the pain is still in me even though I have been helped. 3. I love your love for God. I love God too. 4. Many ways. Speaking to my friends about it is one way. Another way is talking about it on different forums. Another way is to speak through myself, through my own heart and discuss my inner feelings with my own thoughts. |
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