Speaking with Krista.
Mar 5, 2014 19:48:01 GMT 10
Post by Samantha McCabe on Mar 5, 2014 19:48:01 GMT 10
I have been following James advise about connecting with your band of spirits that are around you. Mary told me also that I have a very loving team of Celestial spirits helping me so I want to start making full use of them in my healing. I am working with Krista a beautiful Water spirit which really surprised me when she came through as a dominant helper of mine as I have always bee afraid of water and had the most terrifying dreams always with water being the oppressor. I am going to ask her a few questions and just see what comes as I write on here, here goes!
I am just quieting myself and asking my Mother and Father to please bring Krista through for me. When she is with me I see her in my mind but I also feel her with a coolness around me and it feels like my feet are in water, its nice.
Me: Hi Krista, I can see you and feel you but just to make sure, is that you Krista my beautiful water spirit.
Krista: Yes Sam, it took me some time as you haven't called for me for a while, we will work on our connection and it will get better as we build on our relationship. I can be of so much help to you with all things emotional and where your feelings need working on.
Me: Yes Krista I understand and I will connect with you so much more but I don't want to get to dependant on you helping me as I want to do my feeling healing myself and work through it all to get to my truth. I don't want anyone taking this away from me Krista.
Krista: I would only ever guide and comfort you Sam, never take away your experience. You have been working so deep and hard on yourself this week Sam and come to some important revelations of your truth. Tell me about what you discovered and if there is anything I think you may have missed I will help you to go even deeper if you want me to. And Sam, I have to say at this point that my name is correct but the spelling of it is wrong, its Christa not Krista, the same sound but spelt that way.
Me: Got it, thanks Christa ha ha ha. Yes I have been through it a bit this week, relentless at times but it cant be ignored as that would be so unloving to myself so I have been writing like mad to reveal the truth of my feelings, they just come up anywhere and I am thinking, please don't forget that Sam, but at times I just have to stop and do it on the spot. And when I have been doing my healing I have felt you around me Christa, I feel the ripples of you brush over me and it is so comforting.
Christa: I am so glad you have felt me, that is great Sam. Like water I try to help you gain clarity and pureness when you hit "The Wall" as you call it, I come closer because I am on your mind now when you do your healing so I come close.
Me: Yes Christa, I cant help it, as soon as I do my healing lately, my soul calls for you and I feel you.
This week I felt that really awful feeling when your blood sugar suddenly drops, it was so quick and made me feel pretty bad, I am really sick of feeling this, it scares me Christa and makes me feel like I could just drop, it consumes me with bad feelings and fear. I get it quite a lot and have to eat to get it to go. I am really sick of it.
Christa: Have you worked through it Sam or would you like me to begin what this has been alerting you to for all these years, I think you know.
Me: I will tell you Christa but add anything I have not seen if you will.
Every time this happens I feel very emotional and just want to cry and most of the time I do to get it out and relieve the feelings. It is a total build up of feelings that are so deeply hidden that is why the feeling it gives me is so intense.
Christa: Isnt it amazing sam how your soul is communicating with you and alerting you to what needs healing and all through your feelings, to heal you must feel. Your soul is your communication and you are truly listening to it now, so emptying it out, tell me how you felt.
Me: Oh Christa, I felt so awful, so empty and just wanted to get to food to make this go away but knew that food was now a distraction to make me feel good and get rid of the bad feeling, I was and always had used food to fill the emptiness and make me feel better, that is what people must be doing Christa, they are in so much pain they use food to make it go away to replace the bad feeling with a good one. I was thinking just get to some food and I will be ok, the physical pain will go away once my blood sugar levels had restored. I was panicing and the feeling of emptiness was so painfull, I felt hollow and so alone with my inner feelings, No one could help me but food will make it all go away. I asked for the truth to come to me of why I was feeling so rubbish and I wanted to put an end to this controlling feeling that makes me panic if I cant get to food when I feel like this. The truth came so quick.
Christa: I am so excited for you sam I can feel your amazment at the revelation of truth that came from within yourself.
Me: I couldnt keep up with the answers that came to me Christa, I was amazed. My energy had gone, my life force felt flat annd lifeless, I was empty and hollow and had to sit with this and feel it, I felt so ill and so intense and felt hopeless at the fact that I knew food would make it all go away but that wasnt the core of the feeling and I knew it, I wanted to eat so badly but would have felt like I had denyied myself the truth of my feelings, my soul wants this healed and I have been given this feeling repeatedly through my life but not aware of the emotion it wanted me to see, the communication was so vital as my feelings were telling me.
It was so hard to work on my feelings while being in an overwhelming state of panic, the panic wanted to consume me and over ride my feeling message, it wanted control so badly and I was finding it so hard to go into my feelings, I just kept asking my Mother and Father to bring through the truth and I was taken straight through to the emptiness and how it made me feel, the emotion just came up and out. I was empty and like no one would understand me, So hollow, nothing inside but emptiness and pain like when I was a kid, I wasnt hungry for food but hungry for love and the attention of my parents I was so empty and hollow I felt like I didnt exist like when I was little, looking up at my parents but being ignored, like I was invisable. I didnt want to bother them so I became empty, hollow and invisable to them and that is the same feeling as I get now and my hunger is alerting me to this deep hidden pain of not having the feeling of love inside me but the feeling of no love, emptiness and pain. The emptiness I have been avoiding for all these years but have used food to get rid of it and feel better again.
Christa: And what did your parents use to get rid of you Sam and shut you up.
Me: Oh my God Christa, thank you so much, yes, they would give me food to shut me up and that is what I use now to stop the pain, I do what they did to me. I shut me up with food instead of listening to me, I ignore me as they did, so unloving to myself, so evil to myself. I am just amazed Christa, thank you so much for bringing that out of me. I controll myself with food just like so many others, that is why there is so much obeasity people are using food to quieten the pain they are truly feeling, the pain of being unloved, food gives them a feeling of quientness and it shits up the emptiness they are being alerted to, the feeling of not being loved but food stops that feeling for a very short while but it will never go away untill you accept it, express it and want to find your truth in those incredible, wonderful Bad feelings.
Christa: You feel happy with yourself dont you Sam.
Me: I am so incredibly happy, I feel so light Christa, something so deep has lifted. WE are given food to shut us up so our parents dont have to deal with us, ignore us, we then grow up to use food to shut out our feelings of not being or feeling loved. We use food to cover up and deny our bed feelings so we dont have to deal with them, ignored as we were as kids. I am going to work more with this revelation Christa, my God I can see Mum shoving a lolly in my mouth now, buscuits, drinks, chocolate so now I have the relationship of food curing a feeling, food substituting Love. I have had it all so wrong for so long but I am feeling so great to have unraveled this lie that I have had deep within me, food filling our emotional needs that were taken from us as kids. I cant stop going over it.
Christa: It was just a little nudge Sam, not taking over as you feared, you will gain trust in me as we develope together. I am off now but I will leave my cleansing, pure energy with you as you now feel so clean and sparkly dont you.
Me: Thank you so much for the nudge Christa, and yes, I do feel so pure and clean and wonderfully fresh like I have released a rotten core. We will speak so soon Christa.
Wow, now that felt good. I am off now to drink loads of water and love the clean feeling I feel untill the next Bad feeling. xx
I am just quieting myself and asking my Mother and Father to please bring Krista through for me. When she is with me I see her in my mind but I also feel her with a coolness around me and it feels like my feet are in water, its nice.
Me: Hi Krista, I can see you and feel you but just to make sure, is that you Krista my beautiful water spirit.
Krista: Yes Sam, it took me some time as you haven't called for me for a while, we will work on our connection and it will get better as we build on our relationship. I can be of so much help to you with all things emotional and where your feelings need working on.
Me: Yes Krista I understand and I will connect with you so much more but I don't want to get to dependant on you helping me as I want to do my feeling healing myself and work through it all to get to my truth. I don't want anyone taking this away from me Krista.
Krista: I would only ever guide and comfort you Sam, never take away your experience. You have been working so deep and hard on yourself this week Sam and come to some important revelations of your truth. Tell me about what you discovered and if there is anything I think you may have missed I will help you to go even deeper if you want me to. And Sam, I have to say at this point that my name is correct but the spelling of it is wrong, its Christa not Krista, the same sound but spelt that way.
Me: Got it, thanks Christa ha ha ha. Yes I have been through it a bit this week, relentless at times but it cant be ignored as that would be so unloving to myself so I have been writing like mad to reveal the truth of my feelings, they just come up anywhere and I am thinking, please don't forget that Sam, but at times I just have to stop and do it on the spot. And when I have been doing my healing I have felt you around me Christa, I feel the ripples of you brush over me and it is so comforting.
Christa: I am so glad you have felt me, that is great Sam. Like water I try to help you gain clarity and pureness when you hit "The Wall" as you call it, I come closer because I am on your mind now when you do your healing so I come close.
Me: Yes Christa, I cant help it, as soon as I do my healing lately, my soul calls for you and I feel you.
This week I felt that really awful feeling when your blood sugar suddenly drops, it was so quick and made me feel pretty bad, I am really sick of feeling this, it scares me Christa and makes me feel like I could just drop, it consumes me with bad feelings and fear. I get it quite a lot and have to eat to get it to go. I am really sick of it.
Christa: Have you worked through it Sam or would you like me to begin what this has been alerting you to for all these years, I think you know.
Me: I will tell you Christa but add anything I have not seen if you will.
Every time this happens I feel very emotional and just want to cry and most of the time I do to get it out and relieve the feelings. It is a total build up of feelings that are so deeply hidden that is why the feeling it gives me is so intense.
Christa: Isnt it amazing sam how your soul is communicating with you and alerting you to what needs healing and all through your feelings, to heal you must feel. Your soul is your communication and you are truly listening to it now, so emptying it out, tell me how you felt.
Me: Oh Christa, I felt so awful, so empty and just wanted to get to food to make this go away but knew that food was now a distraction to make me feel good and get rid of the bad feeling, I was and always had used food to fill the emptiness and make me feel better, that is what people must be doing Christa, they are in so much pain they use food to make it go away to replace the bad feeling with a good one. I was thinking just get to some food and I will be ok, the physical pain will go away once my blood sugar levels had restored. I was panicing and the feeling of emptiness was so painfull, I felt hollow and so alone with my inner feelings, No one could help me but food will make it all go away. I asked for the truth to come to me of why I was feeling so rubbish and I wanted to put an end to this controlling feeling that makes me panic if I cant get to food when I feel like this. The truth came so quick.
Christa: I am so excited for you sam I can feel your amazment at the revelation of truth that came from within yourself.
Me: I couldnt keep up with the answers that came to me Christa, I was amazed. My energy had gone, my life force felt flat annd lifeless, I was empty and hollow and had to sit with this and feel it, I felt so ill and so intense and felt hopeless at the fact that I knew food would make it all go away but that wasnt the core of the feeling and I knew it, I wanted to eat so badly but would have felt like I had denyied myself the truth of my feelings, my soul wants this healed and I have been given this feeling repeatedly through my life but not aware of the emotion it wanted me to see, the communication was so vital as my feelings were telling me.
It was so hard to work on my feelings while being in an overwhelming state of panic, the panic wanted to consume me and over ride my feeling message, it wanted control so badly and I was finding it so hard to go into my feelings, I just kept asking my Mother and Father to bring through the truth and I was taken straight through to the emptiness and how it made me feel, the emotion just came up and out. I was empty and like no one would understand me, So hollow, nothing inside but emptiness and pain like when I was a kid, I wasnt hungry for food but hungry for love and the attention of my parents I was so empty and hollow I felt like I didnt exist like when I was little, looking up at my parents but being ignored, like I was invisable. I didnt want to bother them so I became empty, hollow and invisable to them and that is the same feeling as I get now and my hunger is alerting me to this deep hidden pain of not having the feeling of love inside me but the feeling of no love, emptiness and pain. The emptiness I have been avoiding for all these years but have used food to get rid of it and feel better again.
Christa: And what did your parents use to get rid of you Sam and shut you up.
Me: Oh my God Christa, thank you so much, yes, they would give me food to shut me up and that is what I use now to stop the pain, I do what they did to me. I shut me up with food instead of listening to me, I ignore me as they did, so unloving to myself, so evil to myself. I am just amazed Christa, thank you so much for bringing that out of me. I controll myself with food just like so many others, that is why there is so much obeasity people are using food to quieten the pain they are truly feeling, the pain of being unloved, food gives them a feeling of quientness and it shits up the emptiness they are being alerted to, the feeling of not being loved but food stops that feeling for a very short while but it will never go away untill you accept it, express it and want to find your truth in those incredible, wonderful Bad feelings.
Christa: You feel happy with yourself dont you Sam.
Me: I am so incredibly happy, I feel so light Christa, something so deep has lifted. WE are given food to shut us up so our parents dont have to deal with us, ignore us, we then grow up to use food to shut out our feelings of not being or feeling loved. We use food to cover up and deny our bed feelings so we dont have to deal with them, ignored as we were as kids. I am going to work more with this revelation Christa, my God I can see Mum shoving a lolly in my mouth now, buscuits, drinks, chocolate so now I have the relationship of food curing a feeling, food substituting Love. I have had it all so wrong for so long but I am feeling so great to have unraveled this lie that I have had deep within me, food filling our emotional needs that were taken from us as kids. I cant stop going over it.
Christa: It was just a little nudge Sam, not taking over as you feared, you will gain trust in me as we develope together. I am off now but I will leave my cleansing, pure energy with you as you now feel so clean and sparkly dont you.
Me: Thank you so much for the nudge Christa, and yes, I do feel so pure and clean and wonderfully fresh like I have released a rotten core. We will speak so soon Christa.
Wow, now that felt good. I am off now to drink loads of water and love the clean feeling I feel untill the next Bad feeling. xx
