What actually is longing for the truth
Jan 21, 2014 22:12:09 GMT 10
Post by James on Jan 21, 2014 22:12:09 GMT 10
What actually is longing for the truth when we know how our childhood repression started?
Assuming you’ve begun your Soul- or Feeling-Healing, it means God wants you to start to come to terms with all that has happened to you through your forming years and early childhood - all that has made you be as you are. And how you are is imperfect, you’re wrong (we all are) and so your soul is now saying that it wants you to start sorting yourself out so you can become right and perfect - that’s your spiritual journey for the time being, until you’ve finished your Soul-Healing.
So as long as you want to heal yourself this way, your soul is going to keep bringing up the pain and bad feelings so you can embrace them, no longer denying them, all so you can keep seeing the truth of them. You must have made a very deep personal decision somewhere along the way to uncover and face the truth of all your bad stuff, so that’s what’s happening. So the process has begun, and will keep going should you want it to.
And even though you know where all your problems have started from, that being with your parents and family, still there is a huge amount for you, for us all, to understand about it all. Our Mother and Father want us to uncover the whole lot, so every little bit of wrongness that happened between our parents and early carers, all so we can fully understand all we’ve been through: see how and why it’s all affected us, how we’ve taken on all the bad stuff becoming imperfect, and then to even experience the whole healing of our childhood repression. And this all has to be done through feelings, for although you might understand with your mind what it’s all about and where it has all come from, that’s only a minor part, for it’s all through your feelings that you’ll come to terms with your pain and really see the truth for yourself - the truth of every little part.
So there’s going to be a lot of pain and it’s going to take a lot of years and very hard work, but the most important part of it all, should you want to keep going with it, is that it’s necessary and vital to keep longing for the truth of all you’re feeling. You have to keep wanting to see it, wanting to see what God wants to show you about it all. And we all have to keep making the effort, a big effort, because we’ve been programmed to push it all away and not want to feel and face all the bad stuff. So our constant longing for the truth is applying our will, like affirming to ourselves and God: yes, I do want to keep going, I do want to see it, and I do want to become true.
The other thing about longing constantly - when you feel to - for the truth is that when all the bad stuff surfaces, you’ve got something to do with it, other than just express it all; you’ve got something to hang on to, otherwise potentially all the bad feelings might become too overwhelming straining your mind and emotional system causing you even more difficulties. So longing for the truth and having it come to light keeps you sane through all the pain and bad feelings, it sort of keeps your head above water.
Also, it’s ONLY about our uncovering the truth of our pain. We don’t have to suffer it forever. The bad feelings come up and we acknowledge them, try and express them, which is pushing their bad energy out of us so it no longer remains repressed and buried in us; and then as we long for the truth of them, and as that truth comes up in us, then the pain will go. So when we uncover the truth we’re released from our inner torment. We have to uncover the truth of our pain, of our relationship with our parents; and whether it’s good or bad, when we see it through our feelings, then we can move on from that bit, that being our actual healing. If we don’t uncover the truth, so don’t long for it, the pain will never leave us, and we’ll never properly heal ourselves.
However having said that, the difficulty is, our soul, from my and Marion’s experiences, having committed ourselves to doing our healing, keeps up the pressure, so as soon as we’ve expressed some bad feelings, longed for their truth and seen it, then felt the pain of those bad feelings going, more bad feelings surface, and on it goes, with some days it being relentless. But all I can say is, we have to trust that our Heavenly Parents know what They are doing, and will only subject us to so much at a time, which will be all we can cope with, and just enough to break down our beliefs and barriers, and enough to bring up the necessary pain and bad feelings for each level of truth we’re so see about ourselves.
So the process of accepting, speaking about - expressing, and then longing for the truth of all your feelings, is the most important part of Divine Love Spirituality. We need to find the truth of ourselves, all so we can live true. And by starting off our lives in the negative or untrue or anti truth way of living, we have to understand what that’s all about first, and heal ourselves of our truth-denial, before we can go on and learn all about living in a truly positive, self-loving way.
How and when I long for the truth.
Overall I have made a commitment to myself to uncover the truth of my wrongness, and also: the whole truth of myself, something I want to do forevermore. Who am I? - I really want to know. And I’ve come to see that through my feelings I can answer that question as my soul reveals the truth of who I am to me.
I don’t long for the truth all the time, only when I feel I want to long. And this usually means, whenever it occurs to me to long - which can be any time, just like longing for the Divine Love; and when I’ve expressed some bad feelings but feel stuck, really messed around in my head, confused, and I need help. So I long to the Mother and Father to help me see the truth of what I’m feeling. And I also just long hard to see the truth, it’s sort of to myself, but really it’s expressing a really deep and strong and determined desire for the truth to come up - almost like I’m trying to will the truth to come up in me, so I can see why I’m feeling bad at that time. And I mostly just long in my mind; but sometimes, as often it helps, I express my longing out loud to Marion, or if I’m by myself, like in the car, out loud to God, or just to myself.
And then almost every night lying in bed as I’m going to sleep I also long to God, praying to Them to help me see the truth of myself, asking Them to keep bringing up my repressed pain and bad feelings and to keep helping me to express and uncover the truth of it all. And if I go to bed feeling bad or working on a specific problem - some of my false and untrue behaviour that’s come to light through the day, I also ask and long for Them to help me see more truth about it all. And often through yet more bad feelings and talking about them all with Marion in the morning, I get more insight and understanding - the answer to my plea to Them for help. Often I’ll have a dream that makes me feel bad in some way, and upon expressing and speaking and discussing with Marion all I feel about it and all it’s making me feel, the truth that comes is the answer to what I’ve asked God for help about the night before.
And the thing about it all is there are no rules, no right way to do it or how often you should, it’s all a very personal thing, do be done when and because we feel you want to do it. And like it all, it’s a feeling-inspired thing to do, not something you do because you’ve learnt or think it’s a good idea and you make yourself do it dogmatically using your mind. So our longing is just part of it all, part of our feeling expression, for we’re simply expressing our feeling to long, just as we pray to God when we feel to, and not because we believe we should because the Church or someone says we should. We say our prayers as we feel them, the words being our own expression of our feelings, and not just mental repetition of learnt prayers.
Mother and Father, please help me to see the truth of myself. I want to know what I’m all about and why I feel all the feelings I do.
Assuming you’ve begun your Soul- or Feeling-Healing, it means God wants you to start to come to terms with all that has happened to you through your forming years and early childhood - all that has made you be as you are. And how you are is imperfect, you’re wrong (we all are) and so your soul is now saying that it wants you to start sorting yourself out so you can become right and perfect - that’s your spiritual journey for the time being, until you’ve finished your Soul-Healing.
So as long as you want to heal yourself this way, your soul is going to keep bringing up the pain and bad feelings so you can embrace them, no longer denying them, all so you can keep seeing the truth of them. You must have made a very deep personal decision somewhere along the way to uncover and face the truth of all your bad stuff, so that’s what’s happening. So the process has begun, and will keep going should you want it to.
And even though you know where all your problems have started from, that being with your parents and family, still there is a huge amount for you, for us all, to understand about it all. Our Mother and Father want us to uncover the whole lot, so every little bit of wrongness that happened between our parents and early carers, all so we can fully understand all we’ve been through: see how and why it’s all affected us, how we’ve taken on all the bad stuff becoming imperfect, and then to even experience the whole healing of our childhood repression. And this all has to be done through feelings, for although you might understand with your mind what it’s all about and where it has all come from, that’s only a minor part, for it’s all through your feelings that you’ll come to terms with your pain and really see the truth for yourself - the truth of every little part.
So there’s going to be a lot of pain and it’s going to take a lot of years and very hard work, but the most important part of it all, should you want to keep going with it, is that it’s necessary and vital to keep longing for the truth of all you’re feeling. You have to keep wanting to see it, wanting to see what God wants to show you about it all. And we all have to keep making the effort, a big effort, because we’ve been programmed to push it all away and not want to feel and face all the bad stuff. So our constant longing for the truth is applying our will, like affirming to ourselves and God: yes, I do want to keep going, I do want to see it, and I do want to become true.
The other thing about longing constantly - when you feel to - for the truth is that when all the bad stuff surfaces, you’ve got something to do with it, other than just express it all; you’ve got something to hang on to, otherwise potentially all the bad feelings might become too overwhelming straining your mind and emotional system causing you even more difficulties. So longing for the truth and having it come to light keeps you sane through all the pain and bad feelings, it sort of keeps your head above water.
Also, it’s ONLY about our uncovering the truth of our pain. We don’t have to suffer it forever. The bad feelings come up and we acknowledge them, try and express them, which is pushing their bad energy out of us so it no longer remains repressed and buried in us; and then as we long for the truth of them, and as that truth comes up in us, then the pain will go. So when we uncover the truth we’re released from our inner torment. We have to uncover the truth of our pain, of our relationship with our parents; and whether it’s good or bad, when we see it through our feelings, then we can move on from that bit, that being our actual healing. If we don’t uncover the truth, so don’t long for it, the pain will never leave us, and we’ll never properly heal ourselves.
However having said that, the difficulty is, our soul, from my and Marion’s experiences, having committed ourselves to doing our healing, keeps up the pressure, so as soon as we’ve expressed some bad feelings, longed for their truth and seen it, then felt the pain of those bad feelings going, more bad feelings surface, and on it goes, with some days it being relentless. But all I can say is, we have to trust that our Heavenly Parents know what They are doing, and will only subject us to so much at a time, which will be all we can cope with, and just enough to break down our beliefs and barriers, and enough to bring up the necessary pain and bad feelings for each level of truth we’re so see about ourselves.
So the process of accepting, speaking about - expressing, and then longing for the truth of all your feelings, is the most important part of Divine Love Spirituality. We need to find the truth of ourselves, all so we can live true. And by starting off our lives in the negative or untrue or anti truth way of living, we have to understand what that’s all about first, and heal ourselves of our truth-denial, before we can go on and learn all about living in a truly positive, self-loving way.
How and when I long for the truth.
Overall I have made a commitment to myself to uncover the truth of my wrongness, and also: the whole truth of myself, something I want to do forevermore. Who am I? - I really want to know. And I’ve come to see that through my feelings I can answer that question as my soul reveals the truth of who I am to me.
I don’t long for the truth all the time, only when I feel I want to long. And this usually means, whenever it occurs to me to long - which can be any time, just like longing for the Divine Love; and when I’ve expressed some bad feelings but feel stuck, really messed around in my head, confused, and I need help. So I long to the Mother and Father to help me see the truth of what I’m feeling. And I also just long hard to see the truth, it’s sort of to myself, but really it’s expressing a really deep and strong and determined desire for the truth to come up - almost like I’m trying to will the truth to come up in me, so I can see why I’m feeling bad at that time. And I mostly just long in my mind; but sometimes, as often it helps, I express my longing out loud to Marion, or if I’m by myself, like in the car, out loud to God, or just to myself.
And then almost every night lying in bed as I’m going to sleep I also long to God, praying to Them to help me see the truth of myself, asking Them to keep bringing up my repressed pain and bad feelings and to keep helping me to express and uncover the truth of it all. And if I go to bed feeling bad or working on a specific problem - some of my false and untrue behaviour that’s come to light through the day, I also ask and long for Them to help me see more truth about it all. And often through yet more bad feelings and talking about them all with Marion in the morning, I get more insight and understanding - the answer to my plea to Them for help. Often I’ll have a dream that makes me feel bad in some way, and upon expressing and speaking and discussing with Marion all I feel about it and all it’s making me feel, the truth that comes is the answer to what I’ve asked God for help about the night before.
And the thing about it all is there are no rules, no right way to do it or how often you should, it’s all a very personal thing, do be done when and because we feel you want to do it. And like it all, it’s a feeling-inspired thing to do, not something you do because you’ve learnt or think it’s a good idea and you make yourself do it dogmatically using your mind. So our longing is just part of it all, part of our feeling expression, for we’re simply expressing our feeling to long, just as we pray to God when we feel to, and not because we believe we should because the Church or someone says we should. We say our prayers as we feel them, the words being our own expression of our feelings, and not just mental repetition of learnt prayers.
Mother and Father, please help me to see the truth of myself. I want to know what I’m all about and why I feel all the feelings I do.