Emal from my dad Jan 4, 2018 5:53:02 GMT 10
Post by samantha9 on Jan 4, 2018 5:53:02 GMT 10
AN EMAIL I RECIEVED TODAY FROM MY DAD
Hi Sam dad here you seem to be in a dark place and in danger of it getting darker ! Your a bit to young to be travelling that road why do you think your feeling so low you always had so much vitality and zest for life where's it all gone ? There's so many things you could be doing to get fulfilment in your life so many people who would benefit from all you've done and achieved in your life or you could try a long distance walk ! Nothing like it for clearing your head and opening up a whole new perspective on life . At this end of my life I don't want any animosity with any of our family if you think you and I having a chat would be beneficial so be it I have to confess that I cannot understand your current belief it probably doesn't help that I have no belief in the supernatural beings you are letting dictate your life style but I respect your faith in them and if they help you cope with your chosen path through life then so be it . But you must appreciate that it is painful for Mum and I to be rejected by one of our children . It sounds like your a follower of Jehovah's witness the also don't celebrate birthdays or Christmas I'm not looking to denigrate your faith just trying to understand where your coming from as I can't go through what's left of my life without some kind of understanding x Dad x
I will write all I feel about this when I have finishes fuming and undoing the emotional knots I am feeling inside of me. Oh my God the undercurrent and manipulating threat this contains, I feel so controlled by this, telling me I am not allowed to feel my feelings, I have to make him feel good and stop doing my healing so I can be the old Sam he created. I am going to burst with rage that after all we have spoken about he doesn't respect me and what I am doing but I have to respect him because I am making him feel bad.
We have to stop being scared of hurting our parents, they certainly didn't worry about hurting us
Oh yes, a fucking walk, that would fix it all just because that is what you do, deny all you feel and go on a walk.I am beside myself.