No Help

Sam, I see it simply that our Mother and Father want us to experience being unloving, untrue, and so evil. They’ve set the whole Rebellion and Default up so we can experience the ‘negative’ way of life. So being in this untruth and so self-denying state of mind, everything we do is of that, so all our reaching out and trying to be with God, following Jesus, attempts at finding the truth, as you’ve said, is still actually denying Them; so yes, we have to admit that we are rejecting Them and the Truth and Ourselves, so as much as people call out to God and Jesus for help, they are actually not wanting it, as you’ve rightfully said. But when we decide to stop being truth-denying, so look to our feelings for the truth they are to show us, then as you also said, we’re turning it all around wanting to be true, wanting to end our wrongness, evilness and rebellion against ourselves, Jesus and Mary and the Mother and Father; so then, yes, they can all help us go that way. So it is as you said - only I’ve said in my way; and it would appear that the Mother and Father then leave it up to each person to decide when they’ve had enough of their wrongness and so look sincerely for the truth, but that too is debatable because really it is when the Mother and Father decide enough is enough for you, not when we ourselves decide - when They make us decide, then They will start you looking in the opposite direction to which They had you looking in before. It’s all Them, not us.

So the question is then asked, well, does the Truth of ones Healing - as in, how to do it, need to be revealed first, so the Mother and Father can then start to turn people toward it; or, can people themselves find it when the Mother and Father say it’s time.

And looking back over the history of humanity, I would have to conclude that it seems like the Truth of the Healing needs to first be revealed, which of itself is amazing, for humanity has shown, to my eyes and limited understanding, that it can’t work it out for itself. Alice Miller got the closest so far in putting it together and putting it out there in public, but no one has taken it on further from her, there are not now all these lines of psychological investigation carrying on her good work - so why not? Why can’t humanity work out its own problems for itself? Why can’t it work out how to heal itself of its wrongness, zillions of well-meaning God-loving people have wanted to heal themselves and have tried, but nothing is out there about any real success they’ve had. Certain people might have privately, but nothing that has actually served to help humanity ‘turn the corner’. So one has to surely conclude that humanity in its wrongness can’t, by fiat of that wrongness, find its way out and heal itself. It’s needs outside higher help. Help which can and will only come what the time is absolutely right.

And then with TUB telling us about Paradise Sons, it would seem that yes, it will take an Avonal Son to reveal the next age humanity is to move into and all that involves; which yes, as I’ve written, would suggest is all about the Healing - because what else would it be about?

And then as to whether or not Marion and I are an Avonal pair, that I don’t know, Marion says vehemently that she’s not and it’s nothing to do with her; as for myself, I think it’s a nice idea, hope, dream, delusion, fantasy, something that scares the hell out of me as much as greatly excites me, but really is just my own wishful thinking. And so no, I’m not, we’re not, we’re just two people who happen to have, for whatever reasons, uncovered this truth I call ‘my Healing’. And really I’m yet to see if it is the answer to ones woes, which I won’t know personally until I’ve fully healed myself. It might all just be something Marion and I are making up, and it might not lead anywhere, we might still be deluding ourselves, we might still in our different ways unknowingly being seduced by our minds deeper or higher control it has over us by making us think feelings are the way.

And so if you or anyone is prepared to take on what I’m saying to see if it does in the end make you feel better about yourself, then that’s up to you, but it’s also part of why I’ve pulled back from pushing my work, because I don’t yet know if it really does work, if it is the way for us to heal ourselves. And the last thing I want to do is lead people up the garden path having to say, oh sorry, it’s not working, in fact it’s all bullshit and yet another masterful mind ploy of which some higher spirits have worked on Marion and myself, so wrong way, go back! - sorry about that.

So really what I’m saying is I have no idea about the Avonal thing, there might not be such a pair, it might be all what the spirits have led me think is happening all supporting and in conjunction with my still unexpressed desire and hope that there is. And I won’t know one way or the other until I’ve finished my Healing.

You see, it’s all the same thing: I won’t know if the whole Healing thing is real until I’m true, and that includes any Avonal or anyone else; and until I’m healed, as I’m still of the evil, so I have to also conclude that all I am and all my so-called Healing, is also part of it, just another expression of the wrongness. But as to whether it really is or not, I won’t know until I know, but still I do feel it’s healing me in the right direction and I want to keep going with it.

So for the time being I am putting it out there as a theory about the Avonal pair, for everything that I can see seems to point to there needing to be such a pair. But I’m not saying Marion or I are that pair because we’re not. Just as the Avonals themselves would say they are not such a pair whilst still being in their truth-denying state, because that state is to deny themselves such truth of themselves. So do you see what I mean, the Avonals won’t know they are Avonals, until they are Healed, then when Healed, part of that truth they are living will include knowing who they are. So up until they are Healed, irrespective of how it might look, or even what the spirits and the Mother and Father might say to them, it won’t matter, because until the truth comes up within them from their own feelings, they still won’t know if it’s true for them. And that truth isn’t going to come whilst they are living in such a truth-denying state, because the truth of our wrongness means we’re denying the truth of ourselves - the truth of who we really are. So if someone is an Avonal or anything else, even an ascending mortal, one won’t know fully know or understand what that means until one has healed all the denial of oneself.