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Post by James on Jul 22, 2014 19:29:20 GMT 10
Wes, next time I speak with Mary and Jesus I’ll ask them if they had that child glow... in fact, as I’m writing this and I can feel Jesus wanting to reply: James, please tell Wesley for me that we had the glow of our souls, which is the same glow of a young child, which is the same glow you Wesley will have when you liberate the true child of God that you are, that liberation coming as you now understand through your acceptance of yourself being a child of feelings.
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Post by wesley on Jul 23, 2014 3:37:12 GMT 10
Thank you Jesus and James. I see very clearly. My feeling of being a child benefits me very well. A place where I can take on more of the teachings of soul healing. And actually know what being a child truly is. Sometimes thinking I am adult makes me feel a false sense of being instead of being able to ask and long for the Truth.
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Post by wesley on Oct 13, 2014 22:34:39 GMT 10
Hi James. I was watching YouTube and two men were conversating about the Rebellion in the Urantia. The one goes to say the evil higher ones are all in prison sentenced by Gabriel. They had 200,000 years to carry out there free will of doing what they wanted. Is this the reason the rebellious spirits are running out of steam?
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Post by James on Oct 13, 2014 23:11:14 GMT 10
Yes Wes, none of the original Evil Spirits so I understand from Mary and Jesus are able to cause us any more problems. They’re all detained on a detection world - in prison as you say, awaiting the outcome of the Rebellion and Default on all the worlds they interfered with as to how they will be judged for what they’ve done. From reading the book I don’t think they’ve been sentenced yet. And yes, they’ve been at it a long time negatively influencing humanity. Now the only evil spirits that can still cause us problems are spirits (people from Earth who are now spirits) in the mind mansion worlds. So it’s all up to us (humanity - including the mind spirits) as to whether or not we want to carry on as we have been, or start to heal ourselves. All the talk about aliens, evil spirits, Satan and his demons, who are still causing us problems are only higher spirits in the mind mansion worlds, no one else is allowed to interfere with us. We’re in quarantine in Nebadon - us and the mind mansion world spirits, with only Celestials, true higher spirits, angels and nature spirits outside of the quarantine that can positively help us.
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Post by wesley on Oct 15, 2014 17:43:15 GMT 10
Hi James. What ever happened to the very disciples of Jesus. They seem awful quiet. Did Mary or Jesus ever mentioned any of them? Asking why they are not coming through to speak.
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Post by James on Oct 15, 2014 20:14:59 GMT 10
From what I understand Wes they did most of their work with us through James Padgett. Mary and Jesus have told me that most of them have since moved on, wanting to get on with their ascension. And apparently a lot of Celestials including some of the disciples, both men and women, have ascended Nebadon moving out into the Superuniverse proper on their way to Paradise. The Celestials had not been allowed to leave Nebadon until certain things happened toward the end of Mary’s and Jesus’ age. Those things have since happened so the gateway into the higher universes have opened. I can imagine that a lot of Celestials have been waiting a long time for this, some possibly for a thousand or more years, so I also imagine they were ready and more than happy to get on with their universal ascension.
Early in my writings I spoke with some of them, but I can’t remember where I’ve put all of that work, as in which book - I’ve not made available all my work, I don’t as yet feel inspired to re-read it all as I keep writing new stuff.
Also the disciples have been pretty much from what I understand mostly associated with Mary’s and Jesus’ age, and as that is now ending so other Celestials are taking over their roles, different Celestial soulgroups are going to help humanity through the next age. A changing of the guard so to speak. And I might add, some of the new Celestial soulgroups will no doubt in future consist of people who’ve begun their healing on Earth and who might have finished it before they die, or will finish it in spirit, and then having had so much first hand physical experience with their healing will be given positions in these helping soulgroups, provided of course they want them. Such people might want to just keep ascending through Nebadon, not wanting to stay around helping other people on Earth and mind spirits to do their healing and long for the Divine Love.
As you have probably read, a lot of other people say they have written with some of the apostles, some of those people being associated with the other Divine Love forums and groups. However as to whether or not these spirits are who they say they are, I can’t say, I have a hard enough time trying to believe those who I speak with are who they say they are.
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Post by wesley on Nov 11, 2014 22:53:15 GMT 10
Hi James. On communicating with the Mother how does that feel? It sounds like a whisper maybe that's how I read them.
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Post by James on Nov 11, 2014 23:46:10 GMT 10
Hi Wes, it feels very good, and it’s easy for me now. She’s loud and clear in my mind. It used to be a whisper, but over the years as I’ve progressed in my healing one of the things that’s changed is the Mother and Father have become louder when I speak with Them. I’ve healed so many of my blocks to do with relating to Them, including being able to speak with Them, all of which have been blocks in my communication and relationship with my parents. I see very clearly now how mum and dad came between my Mother and Father. So the more I’ve been able to bring out such difficulties I had with mum and dad so the easier it’s become to relate to, including speaking with, my true Mum and Dad. Sometimes the Mother speaks to me, other times it’s the Father, sometimes both together. Sometimes it will be one of Them for days or even weeks at a time, then They are both there. I feel that I’ve been progressing towards this by speaking so much with Mary and Jesus, and of course in the end, as I would imagine it will be the same for all of us, I just want to be with my Mother and Father all the time. But still this writing and speaking with Them is mostly in my mind, and I want to move beyond my mind into being with Them and communicating through my soul perceptions, so through my feelings, however if I am right in thinking we can all do that once we’re healed, it’s still some time off.
How are you going Wes, what have you been working on within yourself, and feeling?
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Post by wesley on Nov 12, 2014 17:20:23 GMT 10
I ve been following my bad feelings to many parts of my past. What hard work, first to feel this pain and then as it tales off long for the Truth of it. My Soul has no problem with dropping pain from no where it seems and then I take advantage of it. The other day had pain enter my back so easily and started to increase but more of a soothing pain not unattainable. But I realized that such pain in the past was easily denied by me. I had a great knack for self-denial and all sorts of ways to not let this pain bother me. So it seemed that I had plenty of opportunity to do my healing. And going through the day was so easy where I am in my bad feeling that nothing in the day could distract me. Just feeling all that it brings. Even gloomy weather I seemed to be at one with. And I know that its a small crack I am dealing with and understand that years of work is ahead. Yet I know even more that this is the only way to go and to progress. Everything else are only belief systems. And so much more that as I get them under my definition I would say more. Also it is Hard Work. Yet have to be done as You , Samantha, Desire and Marion know so well.
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Post by wesley on Dec 2, 2014 13:31:38 GMT 10
James I was reading a part of spirits in your writings and it seemed that they, the girl and mom were going through the same things there in the spirit world just exactly like the earthly world. Is the spirit world similar to the earth depending on your soul conditions?
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Post by James on Dec 2, 2014 20:27:13 GMT 10
Yes, I think so Wes, from all I’ve been told and understand. What I call the mind worlds, those where spirits are still living untrue to themselves and not trying to do their healing are not themselves like Earth, however all we can do here we can do over there and more. There are a million more things one can do with ones mind to keep one away from ones feelings. And not having to work for a living, having all the time in the universe to do as you please, so there’s room for a lot of further self-indulgence of the mind. However that’s not to say indulging in such pursuits is necessarily a bad thing as it can allow people who had a restricted life on Earth for one reason or another to expand out into all sorts of areas they might have only dreamed about exploring. So giving such people - spirits - experiences similar to earth that they couldn’t have when they lived here. So the mind worlds are there to help them round out their evil lives, helping them experience all they need to before they begin uncovering the truth of it through their healing.
Then the healing worlds are all about doing ones healing, so with whatever ones does all helping to bring up ones repressed feelings.
Then the Celestial spheres are... I have no idea what they are like, and I have no idea what it would be like to be healed. But The Urantia Book gives a bit of an insight into them reading about such places as Jerusem and Edentia.
Anyway Wes, it’s all about ones relationship with ones mind and feelings, and as we have all our feelings and thoughts still as spirits, it doesn’t matter what we do or whether it’s similar to what we did on Earth, it’s all only about furthering ones denial of truth or healing oneself of it.
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Post by wesley on Dec 10, 2014 10:04:40 GMT 10
Hi James. As I was reading sin and evil are we going through the law of compensation from our evil through our healing process or haven't we gotten there yet?
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Post by James on Dec 10, 2014 21:50:55 GMT 10
Yes Wes, through our healing we are satisfying the Law of Compensation and the Law of Forgiveness. When you begin your healing you’re into them both. When you feel really bad about how you’ve been, how badly you’ve treated someone else, nature, and even yourself; when you feel the pain and hurt that you’ve caused them, then accepted it all, expressed it and then uncovered the truth of why you behaved as you did, that’s the Law of Compensation in action. Then once you’ve seen the truth together with the act of fully taking responsibility for your actions by allowing yourself to feel as bad as you’ve caused the other person or creature to feel, that’s when it’s all over, as that’s when you understand that’s how you were treated by your parents and how you’ve taken it on and become as they were, so then you can sympathise with yourself, which is forgiving yourself, which is the Law of Forgiveness in action. It all comes down to fully accepting yourself for being the rotten shit that you are, and in the end understanding it wasn’t your fault that you are that way, you had no say in it, you couldn’t help it, it was forced on you, you had to do it for your own survival, it was all your parents and carers fault. And that underneath really you don’t mean any harm, you don’t want to hurt, you want to love and be loved and have a happy life, that you are a good person and not someone who is bad and evil. That’s all the truth giving rise to the self-love you were stopped from having, so you’re forgiving yourself for being as you’ve been. That’s your final healing if you like, that’s when you know that it’s over that wrong part within you, and that you’ll change more into being the real, true, good and loving person that underneath it all your soul is.
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Post by wesley on Jan 31, 2015 15:55:11 GMT 10
Hi James I was reading the part on UFO s and wondered about the creatures such as djins and reptilian that are claimed to live on the planet are they real? And the rituals that are being done on earth, are they just evil spirits/mind spirits?
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Post by James on Jan 31, 2015 22:21:03 GMT 10
I don’t think such creatures are real Wes. I think it’s all mostly fear-rubbish. I also read about such creatures and beings but nothing makes any sense, no one has as yet a satisfactory explanation so far as I’m concerned. And as far as rituals go, I don’t know what you’re referring to, but so-called Satanists for example are supposed to carry out empowerment rituals, which if so, would no doubt involve, directly or indirectly, such like-minded spirits. I think one can drive oneself mad trying to work out what all these weird things are, there is too much, and seemingly more every day.
As you know I keep it simple. Most of the nonsense I think would be coming from peoples imaginations, such people only believing there might be aliens, reptiles, other dimensional beings and the like. Then there is undoubtedly a huge amount of mind spirit input, playing on the fertile imaginations of such people, and no doubt, even using their own fertile imaginations as well. And then there are the nature spirits, together with angels, which possibly might under certain circumstances also add fuel to ones imagination; and they might even appear in ones minds-eye as some weird creature; might do all sorts of things to help one move deeper into ones wrongness if that’s the path one is on.
Unless someone is well on their way in their healing, anything that is attributed to coming from spirits or aliens or some other world or dimension or whatever, I am very skeptical of. No doubt, and I’ve read a lot of good stuff, some people work with well-meaning mind spirits who aren’t intentionally misleading, and then of course there are the Celestials doing their bit.
So as for all the videos of strange little or even big creatures running about, and all the rituals people do to invoke whatever energy or alien being they think will give them some extra power, none of it interests me any longer as such people are not intently and sincerely looking for the truth by trying to live true to their feelings.
And I think things will only get more weird. As the world’s fear-pressure increases with all the new diseases, war and economic strife, so the same fear will drive so-called spiritual stuff all over the place as people become increasingly desperate for something to cling onto, especially as their traditional support systems stop working. And there will always be creative people happy to make up such bizarre things. There seemed to be far more spiritual integrity in relationship to people sincerely wanting to work with spirits trying to understand what it is all about earlier last century. But it now seems to me that generally people are making up increasing amounts of nonsense daily with no spiritual integrity at all. Like all the stuff about Reptile races or species secretly controlling humanity; reptiles living on other planets or in gigantic spaceships soon to return; reptiles disguised as people; reptiles living in the hollow earth, and on and on. Earth worlds, so far as TUB says, are only created for ascending mortal souls all who are human beings of different brain types - in the image of God. So nothing like aliens from other planets who aren’t of an ascending soul.
Ask the Mother and Father if you can meet some nature spirits Wes. Ask a nature spirit to come and talk with you in your mind. And then ask that nature spirit what it thinks about djins, and I wouldn’t be surprised if it will make itself be one (whatever a djin is?) so you can gain a better understanding about it. And then ask it what it thinks about the Reptile stuff. And then you can tell me what you come up with.
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Post by James on Feb 1, 2015 19:36:54 GMT 10
Wes, I read this comment today, which sort of follows on from what you were asking yesterday. It’s one of the things I read constantly that many people say as being important and containing some semblance of truth. I don’t know if it’s true - but I doubt it.
Anyway this comment sumarises all the bits and pieces I’ve read concerning the Sumerians, Anunnaki, giants, and their supposed control over humanity - even humanity’s possible creation.
I still prefer what the Urantia Book has told us about the corruption brought about by Daligastia and his associates and the downfall of Eve and Adam (“those who from the heavens came to earth”), bringing about the mixing of the local races with higher divine personalities from spirit who materialised on Earth, hence the addition of ‘extraterrestrial’ or ‘alien’ DNA as is speculated about. So the mixing of these higher vibration genes with lower ones because of the Rebellion and Default, something that ordinarily is not meant to happen, means all sorts of weird offshoots of genetic manifestation might have occurred throughout humanity’s past.
I have not looked into the Sumerian stuff at all, nor do I want to. But some things are intriguing, such as what is pointed out in this comment concerning humanity’s infatuation with gold, of which I too have. When I first went down a small gold mine in Western Australia for work during university holidays whilst studying to be a geologist, and was shown some gold in quartz, I could feel the gold fever stirring in my blood. However possibly it’s only because of what I’d been told gold represents since my early childhood that’s made me interested in it, with nothing more mysterious than that. Yet still every day I watch the gold and silver prices observing their manipulation whilst waiting for the sign signalling the end of the financial and economic system as the price of the two metals supposedly skyrockets.
Really I think the whole notion of the Anunnaki or anyone else having genetic, galactic, spiritual or psychic control over humanity is just a manifestation of our avoidance of looking at who really does have control over us - our parents. Certainly in the past before Jesus’ coming people had to deal with the likes of fallen and rebellious angels who could manifest all sorts of things on Earth and in the minds of unsuspecting men and women, Daligastia and his lot and their resulting offspring, the other Evil Spirits, and even the nature spirits playing their part, all adding up to early mankind being very confused over what was going on. But now as we have none of those evil forces constantly interfering with us, so it’s just the legacy of that as manifest in the legacy of our parents control over us that we have to deal with.
So even if there was advanced people, giants and super men and women on Earth in the past, and if they did all sorts of things to influence people, none of that matters anymore because we’ve only got to come to terms with our parents. All that’s happened in the past has led to our parents, and then all they did to us. So it’s now all in us all that’s gone on before, so we only need to keep our focus on ourselves and our own feelings being true to them and looking to see what truth they are wanting us to find out about ourselves.
This is part of a comment on a Before It’s News post. I’ve not included a link to the post or the whole comment because the rest of it is not relevant.
Consider, BIN Reader, my favorite ancient peoples are the Sumerians.
While their cuneiform script is subject to human (and software) interpretational mistakes because of lack of a similar comparable concept between cultures, the tens of thousands of drawn pictures, inscribed on “roll” printing wheels, and printed on a variety of plant/paper and clay mediums, ARE NOT subject to the same extreme “translation” interpretations.
Clearly, one can see, in a literal sense, the messages these people left for us. And remember the forms of agriculture, accounting, numerology (Arabic numbers, base 10), the first examples of cylinder shaped mass printing presses, and mass sanitation, enabling cities to be formed, ALL seemly sprang out of nowhere, and just, suddenly, appeared, with the Sumerian culture AND REMAIN TO THIS DAY, the primary systems used world wide in the described areas. One would agree that without the Sumerians existence, modern society would not exist in it’s present form.
What did they “see’, and draw? Double Helixes, the solar system with all planets in the proper place, plus one, Humanoid Beings (described as “gods”) that are 2 to 3 times in size larger than the “Sumerians” pictured with them, gold mining is pictured, clear beakers positioned in the hands of a god, showing the mixing of unknown substances, and so much more.
These beings (the giant humanoid gods, male & female) were declared as ‘their makers”, and, in “their image” Sumerians were made on a “smaller” scale.
Sumerians were genetically made specifically to mine gold for the giant humanoid gods, male & female, that were present with them physically. The giant humanoid gods, male & female, used part of their DNA combined with Neanderthal Humanoids that were native to the planet at that time in history. The result was the genetically modified lab created humanoid we identify as “Sumerians”, the “Origins” of Modern Man, and “his” civilization!
There is NO “missing link” in the evolutionary development of modern man. There is NO “symbolism or imagination” employed in creation of this art. The Pictures portray, literally, what the Sumerians saw. They did NOT understand it, BUT, they could picture it, and spread those images far and wide.
They did NOT call them “gods”, they called them by a specific noun Proper name, the Anunnaki, or, closest translation, “”those who from the heavens came to earth”.
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Post by wesley on Feb 10, 2015 18:28:32 GMT 10
James I noticed Samantha post on Women and the feminine attracted many guest. It seems the Women are pouring in. What do you think about the man. I guess to lost in the Male ego. I guess man rather live a lie and be in control than live in Truth. What do you think?
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Post by James on Feb 10, 2015 22:43:49 GMT 10
The number or guests does vary quite a bit, as does the number of page views, sometimes upwards of 400 - 500 on one day, then it drops back down to around 50 - 100. However I wonder how many page views are real people and some sort of webot or something. Possibly, and I would imagine, there are more women simply because of it all speaking about feelings, women being more open to feelings generally speaking than men. At least that's how it is in my life. The women I work with at the voluntary nursery are all far more open to any feeling stuff than the men, although the men don't as much put it down or belittle it, just don't feel it's applicable to them, or that there's any reason for them to look more deeply at their feelings. But that's a tiny cross section of people, I have no idea how would be in other countries and cultures.
My feelings about it all lately Wes are for me personally that I am still rounding out and finishing off my personal revelation about it all. Currently I'm very focused on how dad and mum interfered with me on the psychic level - emotionally and mentally, and how I project them continually onto Marion. But thankfully lately a separation has started occurring where I now see them separate to her. And my brain feels like it's going through its end times. I can hardly read anything, and any bad feelings causes great pain in my head and I'm having to lie down and sleep a couple of times a day to relieve the pressure. It's a big deep inner change taking place in me, and although it's still too early to see if it is what I hope it is, if it is, then it's what I've been praying for for a long time. I no longer want to be disconnected in my communication with Marion, I want to be able to have a normal relationship with her, and so I'm hoping my brain is making the necessary readjustments - fingers crossed. It would mean the whole of me, how my parents made me, would change, a huge inner shift.
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Post by wesley on Apr 11, 2015 2:52:08 GMT 10
Hey James I like to ask you about inheriting parents traits. My brother and I got the same nervous twitch my dad has the same hair fallout. I inherited my mom's weak stomach also. Is this all mind related or have they harmed our souls??
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Post by James on Apr 11, 2015 22:33:49 GMT 10
Hi Wes, good question, hard to answer though. Marion and I have discussed such things from time to time and so we have again in answer to your question and I’ll try and write what we think about it up to this point, this being of course only our personal beliefs and conclusions, all of which are ongoing and subject to change.
Firstly, no, your soul has not been harmed, from our understanding we can’t harm our soul, it always remains true and perfect, it’s ‘unharmable’, it being in a completely different level of existence - existential, compared to the experiential level of reality and existence our feelings and the rest of our personality expression is in.
I view it that our soul being perfect has been created by our Mother and Father to manifest in Creation, and through us - our souls personality, the imperfection of the Rebellion. So all our wrongness is what our soul - which is still our self - is wanting to experience so sets it all up for us, all so we can uncover the truth of evil and no-love through our first hand personal experiences.
We are our soul, only we’re mostly focused in the personality expression of our soul, but the more our personality grows through our ongoing personality expression - as shown by our growth of truth, understanding who we are, the truth of ourselves - so the more of our soul we become, as in, we’re more fully our soul and its personality expressed as one in life. So we’re bringing our existential soul into experiential personality expression all the time.
Anyway, not wanting to get too technical about it, our soul selects which genetic traits on the physical, and I also believe, spiritual (including our mind and feelings) and even possibly will level, from our parents and our long line of inheritance factors coming through them. So for each of us it has a huge amount to select from. But then as to why in your case for example your soul has selected to activate and so manifest the genes that give you your nervous twitch and weak stomach is for you to find out through your healing, as the truth will all eventually come to light.
It’s interesting to think which genetic traits from our parents are considered good and which are bad - and why they are. For example, my hair is dark and curly as was my father’s and his mother’s, and everyone says this is good, it looks good, suits me and so on. But how do I feel about it? Do I feel good having it because of vanity, because everyone else says it’s good, because of all the praise... what do I really feel about having the hair that I do? And why didn’t I get strawberry-blonde hair like my brother, and would I have preferred to have that because even more fuss was made of him... and so on. And then what about having a weak stomach or a nervous twitch, these things being usually considered to be bad, weaknesses, or some such, but are they - who says they are bad? Is it again only just because of what most people say, that it’s what society says, that makes you feel they are bad. And do you Wes feel bad about them; you might not feel bad about them, you might even like them... and if you did like them, do you because your parents liked them, that someone in your early life said they liked them and no one said they didn’t like them, so you grew up liking them too? How much is what has influenced us by our family and society, and how much is truly what we feel about ourselves, this being what we are to find out through our healing.
And then no doubt the notion of; well, if they are bad traits, something that’s wrong, will our healing heal them... and is that what our healing is meant to do?
Talking this over with Marion, she insists, and I feel the same, that it is all only about how one feels in each moment, nothing more, and seeking the truth of those feelings. So it’s not about whether or not the ‘bad’ trait will get healed, it may, it may not, however if you feel even the slightest bad feeling at any time about it, then that is one more bad feeling to express and uncover the truth of. And if by the time you’ve expressed every last bad feeling, the bad trait might go, or it might stay, but with you simply no longer feeling bad about it anymore. And even as we’ve seen for ourselves, actually turning right around and the bad thing becomes a good thing. You have a weak stomach, but who’s to say that once you’ve expressed all the bad feelings that come up about that, that you will still have it - it might get healed; or you might still have it - it never healing, but you love having it as it provides you with a sensitivity to food which in future you’ll need for some reason, so the so-called bad trait actually becomes a good one (it really being good all along only with your mind you didn’t think and feel it was) once you’ve brought out all that made you feel it was bad.
Because no one has fully done their healing yet, and because not enough people with all sorts of problems and ‘bad traits’ have done their healing, so we’re still wandering around in the dark as to what might happen to such things as ones healing progresses. It’s all too early to say, so that’s why it’s important to just keep focused on bringing to light and expressing any bad feeling about any part of yourself, and longing for the truth of it. And we’ll all then see what happens, which no doubt will probably be different for each of us - the Mother and Father making, like everything, it all so fascinating.
So for Marion and I, our healing is one long massive exercise in self-acceptance. We ideally would love to get rid of the things we do and have that we don’t like, but still it’s only about expressing all the bad feelings that come up about those things and seeing what happens. And those things might go away, or they might not, but in the end through complete self-acceptance we’ll be happy either way - that’s the theory of it anyway.
I bite my fingernails, as did mum and my grandfather (her father). But they both controlled their biting limiting it to mostly just their right hand pointer finger. And this finger on me I abused the most. For years in my late twenties and thirties I kept it more chewed than my other nails. Then through my healing I stripped it right back to where it was only half a nail and it was very distorted and weird looking, all of which I became more embarrassed and humiliated about. But having expressed so much of my yuk, suddenly about a year ago this nail came on, I didn’t chew it as much, even to hardly at all, and then it started to grow out into more of a claw looking nail, but lately I’m really liking it, even enjoying it as it's very strong compared to my other weak nails, and I’m finding I can do all sort of things with it that I enjoy doing that I couldn’t do before; just small things, such as using it to push out the sand and grit that blocks some of the cowrie shells I’m collecting of late, feeling the simple pleasure of being able to unblock these shells using my own hands and not having to use a knife or screwdriver to do it for me. It gives me a little sense of power, and I feel more connected to the shell and what I’m doing, it’s all more personal, and something I’ve never felt before. So my ruined nail has now become one of my champion nails. And overall my nail biting has lessened quite considerable as I’ve progressed in my healing, but as to whether it will all stop - who knows. And the further I go the less I care whether it will or won’t, the less I feel bad about doing it. And I’m not trying to make myself stop, I’m just doing what I feel.
And other thing that Marion and I have found through our healing is that something we might have liked about ourselves has over time as the truth has been shown to us become something we don’t like seeing that it has been a product of our wrong anti loving behaviour and in our minds we had it wrong believing we liked it. We believed it was a good trait we’d inherited from our parents or was something good we were made to do, but once the surface layers have gone we’ve seen deeper into ourselves that we don’t actually like it. And then we’ve gone with these bad feelings for years, and then we’ve come back to liking that way we are again, but from a different angle this time round, or we’ve moved into hating it more, with yet more deeper bad feelings to express.
So there’s a lot to it. I try to keep my writing as simple and short as I can, but really the question you ask Wes is very involved and involves the guts of our whole healing. In summary I see that our soul controls every aspect of ourselves, it all being as the Mother and Father have made, so how They want us to be. And so our soul will manifest whatever aspects we need, whether inherited or not, all so as to keep generating the feelings we need through the experiences we have so as to uncover the truth the Mother and Father want us to see. And as They obviously want us to see a vast amount of truth about ourselves, nature, creation and Themselves, so our soul will keep working such manifestations. And in this light, it’s possible there is also a vast amount that the Mother and Father want us to see about our life in the wrongness, so our ‘healing’ might take a very long time as all the bits and peices come to light, even possibly longer than our childhood, the time it took to put all our original negative patterns into place. And although I wish my healing would end NOW as I hate feeling so bad, and also I hate how it drags on and on seeming to take forever, still I can appreciate how much there is for me to see about all the bits as Marion and I keep working through them all each day, all which is incredible, amazing and astounding.
But I do feel that a time will come when I do ‘finish’ my healing, I will have brought to light all my repressed bad feelings, I will have uncovered all the truth my soul and the Mother and Father want me see about my negative state whilst being in and of it, and I will be ‘healed’. And I will feel completely self-accepting and self-loving, so feeling good about all that I am, all the traits I am manifesting.
Currently Marion is expressing more how she hates absolutely every aspect of herself, feeling that it’s all a result of her wrongness and she doesn’t want to be it or have any part in the world’s wrongness anymore. And she wishes she could in some way go back to being how she was before she was conceived, before she was made to become wrong. And to live in a world that is of that perfection and one which she feels she’d be able to fit into and be an active part of. One in which she feels she’s an ‘insider’ in, rather than the outsider she feels she is now in our false world. But what does that all mean? Will she eventually when she is fully healed have changed absolutely every part of herself? Conceivably she might be able to do that on the spirit body level when she’s in spirit, so look completely different to how she does now in the physical, and without any trace of her parents hereditary traits that comprise her physical body now. And will she get a whole ‘new’ mind and feeling system as well? Will every behaviour that she is currently expressing be completely different, it being reflective of a whole different world she will live in - conceivably a Celestial world? We still haven’t got enough information from the Celestials telling us what has happened to them along these lines, and I don’t feel as yet to ask them for more information, feeling happier to just let it all be, to see and find out for ourselves, to just move along in each feeling-moment as I unfold.
But all these things have come up from Marion expressing her feelings, and she will go this way and that with them as she does, saying how she hates this part of herself or her whole self, but then once she’s got all those bad feelings out, then she will swing back round to liking and even loving how that part is or how she is. So possibly she will just one day when her healing ends, fully accept how she is then, whether she’s in the physical or in spirit.
And so is it that really we are actually fine how we are, all good as we are, only we’ve been made to believe and think and so feel we’re not fine? And once we’ve liberated all those bad feelings and got rid of all those limiting and prejudiced beliefs, we’ll be completely happy with ourselves? So is our whole negative experience a mental construct - something we simply believe, and have been made to believe against our wills, with our negative unloving behaviour reflecting such beliefs? And even if it is, so what, as knowing that it is doesn’t do anything to help us feel better about it. So it’s always back to dealing with each bad feeling as it arises simply because IT MAKES US FEEL BAD. And when we no longer feel bad, and presumably only ever feel good, then we’ll be living true to our soul and true to our Mother and Father.
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Post by wesley on Apr 12, 2015 20:49:27 GMT 10
Yes I can agree on what you say here about it.
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Post by samantha9 on Apr 13, 2015 6:35:51 GMT 10
Hi Wesley
I also have become aware of so many of the traits of my parents, My mothers weak stomach, My Fathers lower back problems to name only a couple but what I have noticed is that as a child these things in them, brought to me great anger and when I feel these things in me it connects me back to the great anger I feel for them and felt for them as a child when they would moan about it all. I supressed that anger but now I am doing my healing I have connected to it again by getting these traits so I can remember the repressed anger and feel it all over again, it can nor rise to the surface and I can accept, express and reveal the truth of that anger I felt back then, that has been in me all these years. I inherited my Dads red hair which made me feel even more of his possession and under his control and he always said how much like him I was, he was very proud of that fact, it made me his more than my brothers and sisters so I have felt even more under his control because of the likeness and felt to scared even to change my hair colour if I wanted to. My hair was a constant reminder I belonged to him, I was a possession. All traits I hated but got me in touch with the anger I felt because of my childhood repression.
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Post by wesley on Apr 13, 2015 17:08:52 GMT 10
Yes Samantha I am in the same boat as everyone always says that I favor my dad. I hate that so much. And yes it brings up so much anger in myself also. I just want to wipe away all that genetic stuff. Just wanting to be my lonely self not that picture of him. I imagine one day being unrecognized by them. Gone from their pride that it was them that gave me this material evil life of mine. Thank you for letting me see it also more clearly.
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Post by wesley on May 12, 2015 22:37:36 GMT 10
What is the major part of your healing expression your written works or your open relationship with Marion? Because my wife is not involved And there is a lot of things I would express to her but right now that's not going to happen.
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Post by James on May 12, 2015 23:57:57 GMT 10
It’s all I speak with Marion by far. If it wasn’t for her encouraging and getting me to speak about my feelings, and helping me to understand what I’m feeling, I’d not be able to do any healing. I can’t do it by myself, like Samantha can. I’m too closed off, so I need another person.
We both need each other equally because without me wanting to listen to all she wants to say (and I had to show her in the beginning that I really did want to listen, that I was serious as she didn’t believe anyone would want to listen to her), and by staying with her and keeping on listening and not leaving her, and reassuring her all these years that I am still interested in her bad feelings, she would not have been able to do her healing. So we both need and help each other and wouldn’t be able to do our healing to the degree we have done without each other.
We were talking about our relationship the other day and its very clear now that if we weren’t doing our healing we’d not be together. We only have a healing relationship, it’s not about anything else. All we might have thought it was about we’ve now healed. And just about everything we talk about now involves our feeling expression, either doing it or talking about the hows and whys of it. And we spend probably about half of each day working on ourselves together, the other half reading, me a little writing, eating, and other necessary chores - house cleaning, shopping, and my walks in the afternoon on good days. And often we’re bored to tears literally at times with the dullness and sameness and frustration of it all, of always feeling so miserably bad. But still we keep growing in truth and are changing, so we keep going. If those things didn’t happen we’d stop doing it.
My writing is only a fragment of my self-expression, I doubt even half a percent, and I don’t do that much actual feeling expression with it. It is mostly about the bigger picture, and how I understand we are to do our healing based on what Marion and I go through (a huge amount being inspired by Marion, she’s a constant fount of information, it just keeps coming out of her and so much of it is new to me), and then other spiritual stuff about it all which I get from the spirits and the Mother and Father, and what just naturally occurs to me.
As I’ve become better at identify my feelings and then speaking about them, so I’ve not needed Marion to push me as much - and even force me at times - as she has done, but still I need her help in those areas I’m still not familiar with and need practice in.
Wes, have you longed to the Mother and Father asking Them to bring someone to you so you can express more of what you feel? Or for Them to provide some way for you to bring out more of what you are feeling?
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