What was the most difficult part for you in your healing?
Nov 9, 2013 13:55:21 GMT 10
Post by James on Nov 9, 2013 13:55:21 GMT 10
Hello Celestial spirits,
I would like to ask you for my forum, if you’d be so kind: What was the most difficult part for you in your healing?
Towsa: For me James it was having to face the truth of my deceit. I was a very deceitful man on Earth, I lied to everyone, my wife and family, and to God. I promised things that I knew I would never do, I liked and cheated my way through it all, and I felt very pleased with myself, I succeeded, I beat them all, no one got at me, no one cheated me more than I cheated them. And to face this was very painful. It took me my whole healing to express all the guilt I felt at the pain and harm I’d caused everyone. And equally it was exceedingly hard to accept that all I did to others was done to me by my parents. Those were long agonising hard years.
Nowrina: For me James it was having to face the truth of my unlovingness towards my children. I did love them, or so I believed I did, but to see that I didn’t, that was very difficult. I felt very bad for how I treated them, seeing that all my ‘loving act’s’ were in fact unloving. I led them completely away from their soul and against themselves, and even though they all had ‘loving’ lives on Earth and in the mansion worlds carrying on their relationships, still as my feelings led me deeper into my falseness helping me awaken to the truth that I didn’t truly love them, and the truth that my parents didn’t truly love me, it was all very hard.
Zailia: I took a long, long time coming to terms with the anger I felt at my parents for treating me so unlovingly. It hurt, I was very traumatised by it, but didn’t know it on Earth. I died of a broken heart, I thought it was disease, but now I know it was because I felt so unloved by my parents. I refused to acknowledge such bad feelings, buried them all, and paid the price. I suffered greatly as my illness ravaged my body, yet it was nothing like the emotional hurt and pain I felt because my parents didn’t love me. And this all made me very angry. So, so angry. I was angry right the way through my healing, hardly a days reprieve. I wasn’t one of those higher Divine Love spirits lovingly attending to the lower ones who were just starting out on their healing. I was too angry for any of that. So that was what was the hardest part of if for me.
Barillia: It was the duration of it for me. The sheer boredom of endlessly feeling how useless I was, how hopeless, and how I’d never complete it and attain the level of Celestial that I am now at. Every day, more of the same bad feelings. Over and over I would try and express them, as slowly - painstakingly slowly, truth came to me. It was agonising slow, or so I thought. I was used to everything happening fast, I didn’t have time to waste, I never had time to just relax and do nothing when on Earth. Which was all as I now know, because I was scared of the boredom, my racing around being a reaction and rebellion against how my parents treated me. So for me to sink back down into the truth of my unloved negative state and to feel oh so bored again, it was agonising.
Jopeful: For me James it was how fast my healing was. I seemed to rush through it and I worried that I wasn’t doing it properly. Yet the more I expressed such worries the quicker I seemed to go through it. Other people - spirits - were taking years to make any small progress, and yet I soon passed them all by. So I thought I was something of a fraud, that I hadn’t and wasn’t ‘doing my time’ so to speak. But as I said, the more I vented these feelings and emotions seeking the truth of them, up the truth would come in a flash and onto the next bad feeling I’d go. And in reading the question in your mind, why it was like that was nothing to do with my being more loved by my parents and so with less healing to do, nothing like that, as I wasn’t loved, it was just how it was for me because of my parents, it all seemed to work for me in regards to my healing. We’re all so different, as you know, and it’s no different in the doing of ones healing. So my healing was hard in how easy it was, if that makes any sense.
Menin: The pain, too much pain, it was all-pervading, and I could never get free of it. What sort of pain? The soul pain of not feeling loved was of course the umbrella of it all, but then there was also so much emotional pain, psychic or psychological pain, even spirit pain as my spirit body was wracked with pain, it all of course being in my mind. But I was in excruciating pain, which was the pain I had inflicted on others because of my unlovingness toward them, just as it was the pain I had inflicted on me by my parents. We are what our parents make us.
Adrinia: It was the time I had a tooth ache. This might sound odd for how can a spirit have such a pain, however I did have it, it being a memory-pain from my life on earth. Many such pains, physical and emotional come back to you through your healing as a spirit, and when I had my infected jaw with all my teeth on one side falling out, that was pain too much to bear. I died from the infection eventually but it was too much. But as I progressed in my healing I came to understand all that pain was simply a manifestation of the pain I felt from my parents not loving me, so I needed to re-live that pain as it were so as to get back in touch with such truth. As you can see James, there is no avoiding the pain of feeling unloved, and the pain you inflicted on others because of feeling so unloved, it all being the same pain inflicted on you by your parents, all on the feelings level.
Saseena: My pain was greatest from my mistreatment of my pets, I was horribly cruel to them. I took out on them what my parents took out on me. And I have suffered dearly for it. And now my greatest pleasure is knowing I have made amends, I have given back to the animal world all that I took.
Orien: Not being able to laugh and feel happy, being so dam depressed and miserable all the time. It was so hard to endure, and was only relieved because I expressed it all out of me through seeing the truth of it. And what was that truth? I think you know James: the truth of feeling unloved. That’s the bottom line for us all. And what James may we ask is so far the hardest part of your healing?
Don’t ask, I couldn’t say, I couldn’t sum it up in a paragraph like you all have. I’d say it contains all the elements you’ve spoken of, and more, it’s all so hard! Thank you all for answering my question.
I would like to ask you for my forum, if you’d be so kind: What was the most difficult part for you in your healing?
Towsa: For me James it was having to face the truth of my deceit. I was a very deceitful man on Earth, I lied to everyone, my wife and family, and to God. I promised things that I knew I would never do, I liked and cheated my way through it all, and I felt very pleased with myself, I succeeded, I beat them all, no one got at me, no one cheated me more than I cheated them. And to face this was very painful. It took me my whole healing to express all the guilt I felt at the pain and harm I’d caused everyone. And equally it was exceedingly hard to accept that all I did to others was done to me by my parents. Those were long agonising hard years.
Nowrina: For me James it was having to face the truth of my unlovingness towards my children. I did love them, or so I believed I did, but to see that I didn’t, that was very difficult. I felt very bad for how I treated them, seeing that all my ‘loving act’s’ were in fact unloving. I led them completely away from their soul and against themselves, and even though they all had ‘loving’ lives on Earth and in the mansion worlds carrying on their relationships, still as my feelings led me deeper into my falseness helping me awaken to the truth that I didn’t truly love them, and the truth that my parents didn’t truly love me, it was all very hard.
Zailia: I took a long, long time coming to terms with the anger I felt at my parents for treating me so unlovingly. It hurt, I was very traumatised by it, but didn’t know it on Earth. I died of a broken heart, I thought it was disease, but now I know it was because I felt so unloved by my parents. I refused to acknowledge such bad feelings, buried them all, and paid the price. I suffered greatly as my illness ravaged my body, yet it was nothing like the emotional hurt and pain I felt because my parents didn’t love me. And this all made me very angry. So, so angry. I was angry right the way through my healing, hardly a days reprieve. I wasn’t one of those higher Divine Love spirits lovingly attending to the lower ones who were just starting out on their healing. I was too angry for any of that. So that was what was the hardest part of if for me.
Barillia: It was the duration of it for me. The sheer boredom of endlessly feeling how useless I was, how hopeless, and how I’d never complete it and attain the level of Celestial that I am now at. Every day, more of the same bad feelings. Over and over I would try and express them, as slowly - painstakingly slowly, truth came to me. It was agonising slow, or so I thought. I was used to everything happening fast, I didn’t have time to waste, I never had time to just relax and do nothing when on Earth. Which was all as I now know, because I was scared of the boredom, my racing around being a reaction and rebellion against how my parents treated me. So for me to sink back down into the truth of my unloved negative state and to feel oh so bored again, it was agonising.
Jopeful: For me James it was how fast my healing was. I seemed to rush through it and I worried that I wasn’t doing it properly. Yet the more I expressed such worries the quicker I seemed to go through it. Other people - spirits - were taking years to make any small progress, and yet I soon passed them all by. So I thought I was something of a fraud, that I hadn’t and wasn’t ‘doing my time’ so to speak. But as I said, the more I vented these feelings and emotions seeking the truth of them, up the truth would come in a flash and onto the next bad feeling I’d go. And in reading the question in your mind, why it was like that was nothing to do with my being more loved by my parents and so with less healing to do, nothing like that, as I wasn’t loved, it was just how it was for me because of my parents, it all seemed to work for me in regards to my healing. We’re all so different, as you know, and it’s no different in the doing of ones healing. So my healing was hard in how easy it was, if that makes any sense.
Menin: The pain, too much pain, it was all-pervading, and I could never get free of it. What sort of pain? The soul pain of not feeling loved was of course the umbrella of it all, but then there was also so much emotional pain, psychic or psychological pain, even spirit pain as my spirit body was wracked with pain, it all of course being in my mind. But I was in excruciating pain, which was the pain I had inflicted on others because of my unlovingness toward them, just as it was the pain I had inflicted on me by my parents. We are what our parents make us.
Adrinia: It was the time I had a tooth ache. This might sound odd for how can a spirit have such a pain, however I did have it, it being a memory-pain from my life on earth. Many such pains, physical and emotional come back to you through your healing as a spirit, and when I had my infected jaw with all my teeth on one side falling out, that was pain too much to bear. I died from the infection eventually but it was too much. But as I progressed in my healing I came to understand all that pain was simply a manifestation of the pain I felt from my parents not loving me, so I needed to re-live that pain as it were so as to get back in touch with such truth. As you can see James, there is no avoiding the pain of feeling unloved, and the pain you inflicted on others because of feeling so unloved, it all being the same pain inflicted on you by your parents, all on the feelings level.
Saseena: My pain was greatest from my mistreatment of my pets, I was horribly cruel to them. I took out on them what my parents took out on me. And I have suffered dearly for it. And now my greatest pleasure is knowing I have made amends, I have given back to the animal world all that I took.
Orien: Not being able to laugh and feel happy, being so dam depressed and miserable all the time. It was so hard to endure, and was only relieved because I expressed it all out of me through seeing the truth of it. And what was that truth? I think you know James: the truth of feeling unloved. That’s the bottom line for us all. And what James may we ask is so far the hardest part of your healing?
Don’t ask, I couldn’t say, I couldn’t sum it up in a paragraph like you all have. I’d say it contains all the elements you’ve spoken of, and more, it’s all so hard! Thank you all for answering my question.
