with my Angels
Aug 10, 2017 21:12:55 GMT 10
Post by James on Aug 10, 2017 21:12:55 GMT 10
With my angels...
It’s been six weeks since I got sick with bronchitis and all the other strange chest things I’ve been feeling. I am feeling better overall yet still strange feelings persist, some being constant, others coming and going in the same places, others still, pains, coming and going in all different places in my chest, front and back.
The other night I was in bed lying on my right side feeling some of these strange pains when they are ‘up’ in me. It had been a day of being easily able to talk to the Mother, spirits, and whilst I was lying there, my angels. I don’t speak with them that often, it being explained to me that we can’t enjoy an easy conversational relationship with either of us talking freely to the other whenever we feel like it, because of the limitations of the Rebellion and Default. The same old stuff. Anyway, that night it was one of the times I could quite freely talk with them. And I didn’t know who I was talking to, only I just knew it was my angels, or angels who are with me for whatever reason.
And I was talking with them more about how they can do anything to my physical body. And they were saying they can materialise anything out of thin air that my body might need. So if I were short say of some protein, they could easily synthesis it for my body, yet always all in accordance with the needs of my soul. So if I couldn’t eat the foods I needed for some reason, they could give my body wherever it needed. They could sustain my whole being in the physical if it came that, without my needing to eat or drink or do anything to look after my body.
So okay, that all sounds amazing enough, and it fits in with what I’ve read and thought about concerning some of what the angels can do, and is an easy concept to grasp and write with my mind, yet what about my feelings in it all? So okay I said to them, if you can do all that, well how about fixing these pains in my chest, I’m bloody sick of them, and they seem to be dragging on, not really getting better, although thankfully not getting worse either, and yes, I understand that I need them to help me feel bad so I can keep bringing up more of my misery, but still... can’t you just fix them... please... you know, so I can experience such a wonder myself. I’ve written fantasy novels about angels performing miracles, you can read Sage and the Healing Angels of Light on the DLS book page. But I’ve never felt anything like that... so how about it... please... nice angel... angel who supposedly is there looking after me... loving me?
And they said, yes we could easy do that for you James, however you understand that we can’t do anything for you like that just because you want us to, just because you are asking us. If we did that, you could ask us to do anything and we’d have to comply, but as you understand, it doesn’t work that way. We ONLY do what you soul wants us to do, not what you, your mind wants us to do. So you can ask us all day to do things to help you, but we ignore such requests. And yet if your soul asks us to do something for you, instantly we’ll do it.
Alright then, so how do I get my soul to want to fix my chest pains so the angels can take them away... too hard... my mind doesn’t have control over my soul. It might think it does, but that’s a laugh on it. Anyway, I know how to get my soul to fix my chest, and that’s about expressing all the bad feelings the pain in my chest is causing, longing for the truth of such feelings and so on - you know how it works. And once I’ve expressed all the pain out of me seeing all the truth I need to see, with no longer any reason for me to feel bad anymore, so the chest pains would go. That’s how I understand it anyway. Yet the trouble is, I don’t know when I’ve seen all the truth I need to see, neither do I know that I’ve expressed all the pain, so all I can do is just keep feeling scared and miserable and angry all helped along by my chest aches and pains.
And my angels added: And you understand James, as much as it pains us, for ideally we’d love to be able to help you feel happier and happier filling you with our light so you’d feel increasingly loving, we can’t, because we have to go the other way, working to keep you feel unloved, devoid of any spiritual light, and with all your pains, all so the pressures remain to keep you feeling bad so you can express those feelings so as to uncover the truth of your unloving, rebellious, untrue state.
So we are constantly working in your aura, including your physical body. We are constantly making all the necessary adjustments you need as determined by your soul to keep you going with your Healing, just as we did to keep you evolving your wrongness before you started your Healing, and just as we will when you are Healed, being loving and true.
We are always working with light on all the levels of your being in Creation, always carrying out the instructions from your soul, helping it to achieve that which you need to be so you can experience life as you do. And all we do is in absolute harmony with your Indwelling Spirit, which is constantly working within the levels of your mind, also in complete harmony with the needs of your soul.
And as we said, we don’t like having to help you keep feeling bad, we would much prefer helping you to feel good, however that is not the way for you yet, so we are doing our duty to God by doing what you need. And even though you can’t feel it, being in an unloving state of mind and will, we are still doing all to help you along in your wrongness, lovingly. We do love you, and so much as to understand that this negative experience, although very trying, will be in time for you something of incredible beauty and wonderment, something you will relish forevermore, and we will help you with those feelings when you no longer need to be part of the Rebellion and Default.
So great, my angels are busy with me adjusting my state to keep helping me feel bad. Not exactly what you hope your angels would be doing for you - if indeed angels are to do anything for us at all. And yet it makes sense. They are true, so they are carrying out their instructions to the letter. And yes, for that I do feel grateful to them, although I do wish they could just give me a little dose of feeling good. And then it happened!
I got to the end of my conversation with them and nodded off. It was one of my nod offs where I sort of go down a very vague sort of tunnel to the end and then suddenly spring back awake, this happening soon after I’ve gone to bed most nights, then from the spring back I can go to sleep.
So when the spring back happened, I instantly knew that in that flash, in that moment of hitting the end of the sort of tunnel and springing back to my wakeful state, that something good had happened in my chest. I couldn’t quite say to be sure, it was just a knowing, and I didn’t want to get excited or anything because it was probably just my imagination so I’d better see how I felt in the morning... and then the next morning... and this morning I can say, that it was as I felt, because my chest has noticeably felt better since then. All the smaller aches and pains that has been in the same places for a couple of weeks were instantly removed in that moment. I still had the two bigger pains, and yet today they too seemed to have eased off quite a bit to my even wondering at times if they are still there at all.
So I do feel like the angels did do as I asked, which must have coincided with the needs of my soul, and did heal my physical body and whatever correspondingly would have needed doing in my subtle and spirit body, taking away some of those pains in that moment. And gee, it was such a lovely feeling, and it’s given me such a sense of, yes, if they get the go-ahead, they can do anything, making us sicker and sicker, giving us the most wretched time with our physical or spirit bodies, or making us better and better.
And so it all comes back to our simply moving with our feelings, expressing them and wanting their truth. For we can’t do anything else. And leaving it all up to our soul, because, it, is after all, what is making us feel and be who we are.
It’s been six weeks since I got sick with bronchitis and all the other strange chest things I’ve been feeling. I am feeling better overall yet still strange feelings persist, some being constant, others coming and going in the same places, others still, pains, coming and going in all different places in my chest, front and back.
The other night I was in bed lying on my right side feeling some of these strange pains when they are ‘up’ in me. It had been a day of being easily able to talk to the Mother, spirits, and whilst I was lying there, my angels. I don’t speak with them that often, it being explained to me that we can’t enjoy an easy conversational relationship with either of us talking freely to the other whenever we feel like it, because of the limitations of the Rebellion and Default. The same old stuff. Anyway, that night it was one of the times I could quite freely talk with them. And I didn’t know who I was talking to, only I just knew it was my angels, or angels who are with me for whatever reason.
And I was talking with them more about how they can do anything to my physical body. And they were saying they can materialise anything out of thin air that my body might need. So if I were short say of some protein, they could easily synthesis it for my body, yet always all in accordance with the needs of my soul. So if I couldn’t eat the foods I needed for some reason, they could give my body wherever it needed. They could sustain my whole being in the physical if it came that, without my needing to eat or drink or do anything to look after my body.
So okay, that all sounds amazing enough, and it fits in with what I’ve read and thought about concerning some of what the angels can do, and is an easy concept to grasp and write with my mind, yet what about my feelings in it all? So okay I said to them, if you can do all that, well how about fixing these pains in my chest, I’m bloody sick of them, and they seem to be dragging on, not really getting better, although thankfully not getting worse either, and yes, I understand that I need them to help me feel bad so I can keep bringing up more of my misery, but still... can’t you just fix them... please... you know, so I can experience such a wonder myself. I’ve written fantasy novels about angels performing miracles, you can read Sage and the Healing Angels of Light on the DLS book page. But I’ve never felt anything like that... so how about it... please... nice angel... angel who supposedly is there looking after me... loving me?
And they said, yes we could easy do that for you James, however you understand that we can’t do anything for you like that just because you want us to, just because you are asking us. If we did that, you could ask us to do anything and we’d have to comply, but as you understand, it doesn’t work that way. We ONLY do what you soul wants us to do, not what you, your mind wants us to do. So you can ask us all day to do things to help you, but we ignore such requests. And yet if your soul asks us to do something for you, instantly we’ll do it.
Alright then, so how do I get my soul to want to fix my chest pains so the angels can take them away... too hard... my mind doesn’t have control over my soul. It might think it does, but that’s a laugh on it. Anyway, I know how to get my soul to fix my chest, and that’s about expressing all the bad feelings the pain in my chest is causing, longing for the truth of such feelings and so on - you know how it works. And once I’ve expressed all the pain out of me seeing all the truth I need to see, with no longer any reason for me to feel bad anymore, so the chest pains would go. That’s how I understand it anyway. Yet the trouble is, I don’t know when I’ve seen all the truth I need to see, neither do I know that I’ve expressed all the pain, so all I can do is just keep feeling scared and miserable and angry all helped along by my chest aches and pains.
And my angels added: And you understand James, as much as it pains us, for ideally we’d love to be able to help you feel happier and happier filling you with our light so you’d feel increasingly loving, we can’t, because we have to go the other way, working to keep you feel unloved, devoid of any spiritual light, and with all your pains, all so the pressures remain to keep you feeling bad so you can express those feelings so as to uncover the truth of your unloving, rebellious, untrue state.
So we are constantly working in your aura, including your physical body. We are constantly making all the necessary adjustments you need as determined by your soul to keep you going with your Healing, just as we did to keep you evolving your wrongness before you started your Healing, and just as we will when you are Healed, being loving and true.
We are always working with light on all the levels of your being in Creation, always carrying out the instructions from your soul, helping it to achieve that which you need to be so you can experience life as you do. And all we do is in absolute harmony with your Indwelling Spirit, which is constantly working within the levels of your mind, also in complete harmony with the needs of your soul.
And as we said, we don’t like having to help you keep feeling bad, we would much prefer helping you to feel good, however that is not the way for you yet, so we are doing our duty to God by doing what you need. And even though you can’t feel it, being in an unloving state of mind and will, we are still doing all to help you along in your wrongness, lovingly. We do love you, and so much as to understand that this negative experience, although very trying, will be in time for you something of incredible beauty and wonderment, something you will relish forevermore, and we will help you with those feelings when you no longer need to be part of the Rebellion and Default.
So great, my angels are busy with me adjusting my state to keep helping me feel bad. Not exactly what you hope your angels would be doing for you - if indeed angels are to do anything for us at all. And yet it makes sense. They are true, so they are carrying out their instructions to the letter. And yes, for that I do feel grateful to them, although I do wish they could just give me a little dose of feeling good. And then it happened!
I got to the end of my conversation with them and nodded off. It was one of my nod offs where I sort of go down a very vague sort of tunnel to the end and then suddenly spring back awake, this happening soon after I’ve gone to bed most nights, then from the spring back I can go to sleep.
So when the spring back happened, I instantly knew that in that flash, in that moment of hitting the end of the sort of tunnel and springing back to my wakeful state, that something good had happened in my chest. I couldn’t quite say to be sure, it was just a knowing, and I didn’t want to get excited or anything because it was probably just my imagination so I’d better see how I felt in the morning... and then the next morning... and this morning I can say, that it was as I felt, because my chest has noticeably felt better since then. All the smaller aches and pains that has been in the same places for a couple of weeks were instantly removed in that moment. I still had the two bigger pains, and yet today they too seemed to have eased off quite a bit to my even wondering at times if they are still there at all.
So I do feel like the angels did do as I asked, which must have coincided with the needs of my soul, and did heal my physical body and whatever correspondingly would have needed doing in my subtle and spirit body, taking away some of those pains in that moment. And gee, it was such a lovely feeling, and it’s given me such a sense of, yes, if they get the go-ahead, they can do anything, making us sicker and sicker, giving us the most wretched time with our physical or spirit bodies, or making us better and better.
And so it all comes back to our simply moving with our feelings, expressing them and wanting their truth. For we can’t do anything else. And leaving it all up to our soul, because, it, is after all, what is making us feel and be who we are.