So who is my soulmate and could I really live with them?

Lots of goodies in this post LOK11. First of all, why do you keep putting yourself down? Why the need to say sorry? So you’re a newbie, so what, so you’ve not read everything before you ask questions - that’s a big ask. So why did you write these two things - what’s going on inside you? Any feelings about feeling like you’re dumb or whatever for asking? Don’t you like feeling like you’re dumb? And why feeling dumb for asking? - where does that come from? We’ve all got to start somewhere, and they are not dumb questions Lokii, they’re challenging if anything. It was all buzzing around in you - because of? What would you feel had you not posted it?

One technical point, you say: “So what’s the chances that the other half of your personality is alive and actually on Earth at the same time that you are?” It should be the other half of your soul, as we’re one soul that expresses into Creation two complete personalities. You are a complete person, you can do it all, find the truth and ascend to Paradise yourself. However we’re also not meant to do it alone, so we can’t really do it ourselves, hence we have a soulmate, because you need someone to be able to continually express all you are to, and them back to you, each giving the other the needed feedback that validates ones existence: saying, you exist, you are good as you are - I love you because I feel loved by you.

Yeah, lucky God doesn’t care about stats.

I don’t know the answers to the second big paragraph, I think we’re going to have to wait and see, however there are few things I’ve come to understand through my Healing about what you’re asking.
    One thing is, if you did meet your soulmate, either here on earth or in the mansion worlds before you are both fully healed, then you’re going to have to accept that you are both unloving, as we all are, so you’re in a relationship in which, assuming you are trying to help each other do your Healing, is going to be all concerned about bringing to light the truth of that unlovingness. So you’ll be together yet always trying to see the worst of it all, of how you are, so how much you don’t love each other, even hate each other, which makes it a very different approach to having a relationship. Saying: let’s dump the love stuff, put it on the shelf as we’ve got to first deal with the unloving stuff. And then to be able to bring all the worst that you are out to each other without blowing up the relationship, both of you in your worst unloving states still managing to support each other be as unloving and horrible as you are, as you can see, there will be lots of stresses and strains on the relationship. So the notion of just because you are soulmates therefore it will be all harmonious and paradise love together - not until you’ve done your Healing. Because for it to be like that, you’d have to be massively untrue, full of shit, falseness and fantasy, and not wanting to face the truth of you both feeling unloved.
    Can people be soulmates and be together fully in their untruth, fantasy, falseness, delighting in the bullshit love of each other - I don’t know.
    If you’ve done some Healing, you’ve done it, so you’d not have to do it again with your soulmate. And if you’re both on the world at the same time and one starts their Healing, I don’t think anything necessarily would happen to your other half, they would just start their Healing when their time came. I don’t think there’s some sort of mysterious psychic connection with both somehow being in tune with each other like I think you’re suggesting LOK11, however there will be of course some very deep connection, which is what I imagine will be needed to keep you together through all the hell you both go through, yelling and screaming and thrashing it out with each other, stuff that would more than likely end most relationships, when you are both doing your Healing.
    Also I think if two soulmates came together doing their Healing, instead of being similar, you might find you are in a lot ways very different (although possibly once you’ve worked everything through, similar in what your parents did to you, only they doing it in very different ways), so you’d be coming at it from opposite directions, helping each other by adding tension and by not being similar in so many areas, all so as to keep exerting pressure to keep the bad feelings surfacing. And you might not even be alike at all, even very different people, however something keeps you together, the common goal being wanting to find the truth of yourself through your feelings, and it turns out that your soulmate is the best person to help you with that, should you need such help in your Healing.
Like so many things to do with our Healing, it’s all probably the opposite to what you’d expect.
    And I think if your healing friend isn’t your soulmate, then when you’ve done what you need to do with each other, you’ll move on, just like in any relationship. If they are your soulmate, then I think it’s reasonable that you would do all your Healing together, becoming completely true to your unloving states, then moving on once you’re healed, to being completely true. I do wonder if you can be with your soulmate for a time, do some of your Healing, then separate for a time, then come back together at some other point.
And it’s clear from the Celestials that you can do your Healing without your soulmate, with or without other people, then to unite with your soulmate once you’re fully healed should they be ahead of you. But that’s over there where it’s all nicely divided up into mansion worlds and the Celestial spheres, so will it apply that you will meet your soulmate on Earth if you finish your Healing - or, might you have to wait until you die and move into the Celestial spheres? I wouldn’t be surprised if all of these scenarios happen, and more.

Yeah, they are good questions LOK11 - the next big paragraph. If you were meant to do your Healing together, then you’d be glued together no matter what. And so there’d be some attraction, I don’t think it would all be bad, however possibly for some people they might experience that - I don’t know. It’s possible if you weren’t ready to do your Healing, and you met, you might repulse each other, or you might be able to keep up the fantasy, but again I don’t know.
   One thing I think is you’d be attracted to them on the soul level. You might not be (and you might be???) attracted to them on the physical, because the physical in the end doesn’t matter. I’d image you’d be attracted on the spiritual, as you’d share the desire for the truth on that level, and uncovering the truth through your feelings would help both of you. And if one or both of you had lots of stuff to do with sexual fantasies to deal with, then you’d find yourself being attracted to other people, but not enough to leave and be with them, but enough to stir up all the sex stuff that you’d need to bring to light, all those murky I-feel-very-ashamed-of-this-however-I-have-to-speak-about-it stuff.

To finish off, I think that it doesn’t really matter whether we are with our soulmate or not through our Healing. It’s what we need, and so some people will need it, others not, and for all the reasons that we’ll uncover through our Healing.
    This is a just a thought, and I wonder if humanity as it progresses in its Healing, will see an increasing number of soulmates doing their Healing together. For now, the Rebellion and Default is not soulmate friendly, it’s all about being untrue, therefore so separate from each other. So what I mean is, people have not been allowed to do their Healing with their soulmates up until now, however it’s possible all that is changing.
    And the other thing is, if you’re supposed to link up with your soulmate because your soul wants both of you to help each other grow in the truth you need to see about yourselves and each other, then it will happen - you don’t have to worry about that.

And LOK11, what’s got you thinking about soulmates?

To do your Healing LOK11, it’s into this part that you need to let yourself sink: “In fact I probably detest it. I feel better when I have researched a bit and formed some framework around whatever idea I want to speak about before  I speak. I don't like the feeling of making an uninformed comment. I don't like the feeling of ridicule. It overpowers me, in fact, it dis-empowers me.”

I don’t know for sure, it’s too hard for me trying to work out what’s going on with the other person, but it seems like you’re looking to your feelings with your mind. What you need to do is go into the detest feeling... so as an example, to stay with the detest feeling expressing it. I detest feeling that I don’t know, I really hate that feeling, it makes me feel so angry, and I feel angry because I feel scared if I don’t know, scared if I feel dumb, and feeling scared is because of how powerless I feel, I hate feeling powerless, it’s such a terrible scary feeling, powerless, powerless, but that IS how I feel - I feel powerless, I feel scared, I am scared, I am dumb, I am... saying whatever the feeling makes you feel, and not worrying about or trying to work out why you feel you detest things, or what happened to you as a child, that’s all fishing with your mind. Just to stay true to the detest feeling, which is hard if it doesn’t just naturally happen. I need Marion to help me stay with it, as my mind always wants to go off too, but it’s to keep saying how the detest feeling makes you feel, and how you feel having it and following those feelings, all whilst longing for their truth, and when the truth comes you’ll then be naturally led back into your early life. It’s all to get around the mind, to sink ‘below’ it, if that makes sense.

So really this part I’ve quoted from you above, you could make a post of that a couple of pages long with you saying nothing more than those bad feelings, over and over staying with the bad feelings, then moving with them when that happens, but then coming back to them, longing for their truth. I’ve written some examples of Marion’s and my specific healing experiences in my book: Feeling bad will make you feel better - Eventually from my DLS books page divinelovesp.weebly.com/my-free-books-and-free-padgett-messages.html

You then say you have to search your feelings, but that’s the wrong part, that’s using your mind, it’s all about trying to keep your mind out of it, so letting your feelings guide you, so not searching, just keep staying with the bad feelings praying to God to make you feel them as fully as you can.

To answer your question about how hard is it to find your soul mate, it’s got nothing to do with you. I don’t think you can go looking for her. She’ll just show up when the time is right. In the mansion worlds Helen Padgett tells us she spent time informing spirits of their soulmates, and perhaps in time there will be similar people on earth. But as I said, if you long for the truth, longing to the Mother and Father to help you be true, then whomever you need to help you will come - or not come, They knowing what you need. If you feel you want to be with your soulmate, then that’s another feeling to express and seek the truth of it, looking for the truth of it rather than whether or not she shows up. And those feelings should lead you into wanting to feel loved, and just how loved you desperately need to feel, taking you deeper into why you don’t feel loved, what happened with your parents.

Our parents are meant to love us completely, so we then go out into life feeling fully loved, which then sets us up in a loving positive way to meet our soulmate, with that love foundation already firmly in place, it being all our childhood was about. But as we’re the opposite to this, so our parents deny us their love making us dependent on them for the false love they offer in its place, and so our Healing is living true to that false love, finding out all about what it feels like and why we’re so needing it. And when we’ve brought to light and are true to all the wrong, then we’ll have filled in the love deficit ourselves, so being ready to live lovingly with our soulmate. And of course as we’ve discussed, you can have your soulmate along the way at any point helping you with your Healing, if that’s to be what you need.

And again, how bad might you feel without further sensuality in the rest of your life, and all those questions, all just mind stuff, you’ve got to go into each of them with your feelings if you want to do your Healing. Working to bring up and feel all your fear and any other bad feelings to do with them, not worrying about outcomes, just staying with the feeling. Because all those questions are only going to be answered through your feelings, your mind will never reveal the answers as the mind is not a revealer, whereas our feelings are. And when the mind does fill in gaps and seem to be revealing, it’s all only because you’ve first done what you’ve needed to do with your feelings.

And you can be sure that most people will be riddled with sex stuff, it has to be there somewhere even if you’ve not actually get sexual problems yourself, but you’re still going to have to deal with people who do; and as the whole world is full of it, and we’re coming out more so everyone can just let it all hang out, so it’s going to be in our faces one way or another.