A New Realization

Oh Mary, Thank you, Thank you, Thank you for those words. My heart is bursting with what you have said, tears of love are falling, I have been touched to the core of me by what you have said. With all the natural love I am capable of, I thank you. xx

Yes. Samantha I've been feeling cold as well. And the nature part was very interesting. I always wondered how they survived in those conditions.

“I am amazed to know that my soul has created this for me to heal, it knows just what I need to feel in order to reveal the truth of my soul, it is so clever, I am always so amazed I cant quite find the words.”

And it’s you Samantha - you are your soul, you are so clever. You can work it out, you don’t need to be told by anyone else - your parents. You can do it all through your feelings. Mary.

It’s been interesting for me Sam when you’ve expressed such things of late about yourself that Mary is always there wanting to respond. But each time it’s different for me. It’s helping some inner transformation I can sense that’s going on in me but as yet I’m not fully aware of, something that is possibly to do with the culmination of all my writing with Mary and it’s effect on me.

And what a great example of these people who are obviously more natural and not so affected by all the negative stuff we’ve evolved over the centuries and generations. Marion and I have often spoken about how different we’d have related to the environment had we not been hurt so much. The cold has helped to bring all my misery to light, however this past winter I didn’t have to put on my usual winter layers even with our split system heater, I was able to get through winter in my usual spring layers, with so many people complaining about how cold it’s been, all because I didn’t feel as miserable. However having lived in Denmark during winter nothing we have in Melbourne is anything like that.
    And when you look at little children, so many feeling they don’t want to be burdened by clothes and shoes not seeming to feel the cold so much or at all when they are happy; and surely if we grew up happy and not of the negative, we’d simply accept our environment feeling it loving and supporting us no matter how hot or cold it was, it merely augmenting the love of our parents and family environment. People of the future who do their healing and live in whatever communities their feelings manifest are surely going to create ways of living very different to ours. Our ways are the worst we can be, so there’s a lot of room for better alternative approaches, especially when driven by people who’ll be feeling innately good about themselves, each other and nature. I find it incredible to think that we as humanity on Earth still have no real idea about how we are to live a true natural love life, and one not steeped in superstition or controlling mental beliefs like we live and the primitive people of the past lived in. Had we not been subjected to the Rebellion we could possibly be living as Celestials on Earth by now.

However the only problem is, I wish they didn’t cut down the 500 year old trees. I hate any trees being cut down unless they absolutely have to be. When people understand they don’t need to have or do anything to increase their ‘powers’, just express all their feelings, then nature will not be used in such abusive ways. And how would we live, in what structures would people live who lived a natural life in nature if they were healed? Would they use trees for housing and fuel if they were living true to themselves... I don’t know. Perhaps we might use stone, or even have dwellings underground so we don’t have to disturb above ground... perhaps other energy sources like orgone will be made available to humanity who are living true... and would we need to clear tracts of land to grow all our veggies and grains or would we be able to permaculture more, fitting in with what’s already there... or will it be different ways for different communities in different parts of the world, all utilising what is available to them but in a sustainable and giving way...

Sam, what you’ve said about feeling so close to Mary, which you’ve said before a number of times, has this time affected me in just making me feel open to it, to the fact that whenever you write anything I’ll be expecting Mary. Up until now I’ve not expected her to so readily, so I will keep one inner ear open. So I will go with it and see how that makes me feel. I have a slight resistance to it, sort of a feeling like: well it’s between you and her and I shouldn’t be involved. And even anger: why doesn’t she just want to speak directly with you and do so, not always using me, as I have to change my mind, myself, I have to stop thinking what I’m thinking and listen and write what Mary wants - which is of course how it was with mum all the time, she always stepping in and taking over and my having to put myself aside. And then I have a new part that’s saying: hey, why not, I enjoy it, I love it when Mary comes, and if she comes in response to you Sam and I can be involved great, as I was never directly involved in my family, always feeling I was on the outer. So instead of feeling like I’m just a telephone line provided for you and Mary, feeling I am a vital part of it, that it’s a three-way interaction we’re all having, even though it seems like it’s just between you and Mary. So it’s as if you and I are with her talking to her and she is saying things to you - even though they are in this case via me - but she’s also saying such things to me, as they are just as applicable to me all she says to you. So I’m going to bring myself up even more into it and reach out and expect Mary is going to respond to you and see what happens. So instead of trying to shut down the telephone line become even more of it. A part of me still feels Mary and Jesus are wanting to stop all such communication with humanity now the truth has been revealed as to how we can get ourselves out of our evilness, they knowing we have to be left to it to work it all out on our own; then this other part says: but perhaps they will always have a hand in the affairs of humanity in one way or another, and for the time being part of that might be through me and you, as Mary so willingly wants to respond to you. I haven’t felt such response from her like this before - she’s previously only responded to direct questions asked of her, so it’s all still new for me. So as I said, I’m turning it around and now will go the other way to see what that’s like, so willingly be ready for Mary and Jesus to respond to anyone should I feel they want to. I’ll just be open to them as part of what I want to do. I am still wrestling with: Yes, but is that really what I want to do, or is it because I believe I should do it, that’s it’s a great privilege, and it’s what they - someone in authority, is telling me what to do. But as with such things, the only way I can find out what I really feel about it and what I truly want to do, is to keep going speaking and writing about all the different bits that come up in me; and doing it, and then not doing it, and then doing it some more, all the time responding to my feelings.

I am so angry because our neighbour who said ‘he likes having things to do’ decided to chop down the wattle branches that over hung the fence from his side brushing against the side of our house and providing the nightly possums with one of their main thoroughfares. So no more lovely trees for us, no more possums thumping across the roof, and no more little secluded place I liked being in as it’s now opened up the area between his back yard and our place so I look straight onto them all sitting around their outside table having a BBQ. No more privacy, and he told me his wife loves the trees, so he obviously doesn’t love his wife because since he’s moved in, presumably because he needs so many things to do, he keeps chopping down more and more of what was there and not replacing anything. Mum and dad chopped me down and didn’t allow me to come back. I had to become a distorted fuck. Mum and dad didn’t give a shit about me, how I wanted to be, how I wanted to live, they got bored with my old toys so threw them out - ‘you’re too old for them now’. You don’t need those nice trees anymore. I won’t come next door and ask you if you like the trees how they are, I’ll just cut them down because I’m bored - bored with my wife telling me how much she loves the trees. You have to have what we want. And that is bare and yuk and fucking awful. I hate them as I hate the man next door.
    I’m so angry the Internet is so slow again this morning. I am so fucking angry that I can’t have a life with people so I could ditch the internet it being the only thing that gives me at least some enjoyment. I’m so angry that every website I visit puts its shit without my say so on my computer all so it can use me to make more money for itself sending me all their shitty fucking adds that I don’t want to look at. I am so angry I have to use addblock to stop them interfering, which slows down everything even more. A war; them against me, that I don’t want to be part of. I am angry my parents did things to me that I didn’t want. They used me for themselves. They lumbered me with all their crap about how I should be, they slowed me up so much that I can hardly walk. My legs and lower back are always so sore. They fucked me up to I couldn’t have a life for myself, always having to be there for them and everyone else, all so they could use me to have a better life for themselves just like these shitty internet companies.
    I’m so angry when I read how so many of Western leaders and diplomats don’t agree with what America is doing to Russia, and yet they have to toe the line. I hate how piss-weak they are, how they won’t resign, how they don’t have any integrity, doing things to hurt other people when they know it’s wrong. And I hate that dad and Reg were so piss-weak, going along with mum and Gran, never standing up to them even when they knew they were too controlling. I hate how they didn’t care enough about me to be on my side, too scared of the fucking women - their mothers - they married, too scared to say anything against them, always supporting them and then even encouraging them against me.
    I’m so angry I was not allowed to grow up free like the little boy Marion is reading about who doesn’t have to shower every day, doesn’t have to brush his teeth every day, doesn’t have to have good table manners. I’m so angry my parents said it was all for my own good, so I could fit into society and upper society at that by doing what they said was right. And did it all work for me, do I fit in, do I have a happy fulfilled life in any society? No, because I didn’t have any fucking life, let alone a good and happy and fulfilled one in their society.
    And I’m so angry that you Samantha had such a shit time being the second daughter. I hate how parents are not just happy to accept what children they get. And that if they could just go and buy the child they want they’d do that, not understanding God is giving them the perfect child/children for them, the child who if looked to, would help them end their evilness. And yet no, it’s what my parents did, slam me, dump all their first child shit and being a son on me, make me carry the burden of their inadequacies, fucking me right up, all whilst pretending they were so pleased and happy with me. Here James, you go up to Macedon and keep your grandmother happy, that’s a good boy, and so then we can all fuck off and be free of the boring old bag. FUCK YOU ALL!
    I wish I too could go away and cry about how miserable and unloved I feel.

I have read your angry message again James and love it even more, it has brought up another realisation in me that I have found it very easy to be angry at my Dad whilst not seeing how much power my Mum had in all this. Today I have thought about just how much time I spent with her as a child and it must have been 80% of the time, the other 20% my Dad was around but not emotionally present. I have begun to see just how much power and influence she had over him in telling him how hard it is bringing up 4 kids wile he was at work, like she wanted him to do something about it so she was passing the punishment she wanted to give us on to him, to do her dirty work, so when he came home it was always "do as your mother said" and comments like that. I have thought of her as my safe place but that appears not to be so when you think back to all the times she would say "you wait till your Dad gets home" a classic Mum line that we all know. Then you live in fear of what she will tell him because of her need for attention and poor hard done by woman, its all so wrong, you cant trust anyone. The worst of it all is Mothers teach this to there kids, daughters will grow up passing on the buck to the man to dish out the punishment in their name all because they don't want to be seen as the bad ones that they truly are. How conniving, twisted, devious are Mothers, women to manipulate like this, to control their whole environment in this devious way. Women have learnt through the centuries to lie to control a situation in fear of punishment or being stoned to death. We are learning the lies of our Mothers and are paying dearly for the previous generations mistakes and teaching this to the next generation of Mothers to teach to their Sons and Daughters. How dare my Mother manipulate my Father in such a devious way to dish out her punishments, I thought she was the weak frail one, she had me fooled all this time James, and when my Father would tell us off she would be screaming "Leave them alone", its all so mad, she commanded the punishments in her conniving way, and then when he followed her orders, like some ancient Goddess, she felt the guilt of her manipulation. now that is screwed up. Woman has an underlying power of subvercity, a wolf in sheeps clothing and is very clever at commanding man to use physical force. I always thought as a child, if she didn't like Dad telling us off then why did she tell him!!!! COME ON WOMEN, WAKE UP.

Hi James. Today I am working on how Angry I feel about all Women, since I wrote my last post an Anger has arisen about the role Women, the vital role of being our major care givers, or don't care givers. I am in a place of blame today and I have to feel it to its depths of it patheticness. I have seen how easy it has been for me to blame dad and be so angry with him but since your Angry post, I have turned my thinking on its head and seen the truth of how Women truly do the damage, as their Mothers did. The pandoras Box has now opened on Woman and we have to see the truth of how we use our power to create a world of Pain and Suffering, I will speak more later James when I have felt more about it all because I have to break through the Anger I feel to get to the core of this, the Anger that is within me and every Woman.

Hi James

Over the last few days I have asked Mother and Father to show me the truth of the Female role I play and it has all been shown to me in my actions and how I feel with the bad feelings I have received, especially today. I have seen how the corruption of the Female Evil ones is alive and so present in women today through my feelings I have experienced when confronted by Man, I have seen for myself, in full awareness, just how manipulative and conniving and evil I am wen faced with bad feelings from Man or my children and I thought I was doing so well, but Mother and Father have shown me the truth. The Mother role, the Female role is still playing out the part of the Female Evil ones that corrupted Eve and I can see that they have kept them selves anonymous and just let their men be known and doesn't this sound just the same as our mothers manipulating their men to do their will as my Mother did, men doing their dirty work as my dad did, being led by the powerful Woman leader. The women staying hidden just as the female evil ones have done so we never believe that Woman could be that evil. Nothing has changed and the Female Evil ones still don't want to be known just as our Mothers don't want to be known for their part in the evilness, pushing the man forward whilst all the time forcing their influence but cleverly keeping the female caught in the lie of being subservient to man. We may never know the names of the Female Evil Ones and they may stay hidden but like our Mothers, the game is up and we can see through our forming years with our Mothers just how much power they truly had over us, their children and their Men, and like the Female Evil ones staying anonymous, so have our Mothers stayed anonymous to revealing the truth of their power and deceit and they are not the subservient beings they claim to be, vipers, and I include myself in this, I am just as much to blame and just as evil as I have also been taught, like all of us, the ways of the Evil Ones. I have been taught the ways of the Evil Ones and I have passed those teachings on to my children and that wrongness I have been working through with them for a while now. We have all learnt the ways of Lucifer, Satan, Caligastia, Dalidastia and their hidden conniving, deceitful Soul partners, we are living their corruption, what they projected onto Adam and Eve and they past on through the line. Woman has stayed away from this truth of her false power and I cant imagine many wanting to hear this of how we have an equal part to play in living untrue and seeing the truth of our feminine manipulation of man and of our children, we like going unseen as being deceitful, conniving, manipulative controlers, we would do anything to keep this from being revealed and play the poor little wow is me role. We have to accept the awful truth of being the Vipers, snakes that we truly are, stop this lie that we are controlled by man and see truth of our actions when put under pressure by our men and our children, just see the Viper come out then, the truth of the subservient woman that has learnt from a long line of women to be just as she needs to be to meet her needs, to get that feeling met within her from her man and her Kids, she will do anything to get her unloving feelings met and manipulate all around her to feed her unlovingness. Woman has an incredible power that goes hidden, as hidden as the |Female Evil Ones, to get what she wants, to extract the feeling she craves, to feed her addictions. She wants her man and children to feel guilt and sorrow for ever displeasing her all so she can feel good about her shitty self, like a vampire sucking the life force out of all around her so she can survive, not caring how they feel when she has finished with them, as long as her needs are met and her process is premeditated and so subtle you would not even see it and she will chose not to see it too and deny she is anything like that. My eyes have truly been opened to the legacy of the female Evil Ones.

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Tuesday, 30 September 2014

Mary, I was just writing on the forum to Samantha about some of my latest thoughts about how women in fact have a huge amount of power, and possibly even far more than men, because they have most of the power over children. And having such power over an unformed child is the greatest ‘power’ we can have, understanding that such power is really false power and not true power coming from genuine and true love.

Which is correct James and what Samantha is being led to look into concerning herself and her mother and so all women. It is the ‘Greatest Hidden Mystery’ on your world James, this being what you are rightly feeling. And all because I was wholly denied and still am. Had I been able to fully publicly liberate my Spirit of Truth as Jesus did, then such truth would have come to light long ago and things would be a lot different. However that is not what the Rebellion and Default are about - what might have been, and for humanity now it is about the hidden truth of the feminine remaining undeclared. And for all Nebadon to see and be witness to it in my life on Earth, it all being shown to those people and spirits who have eyes to see what really has been going on. You all focus on poor old Jesus getting nailed to the cross for your sins, however what about poor old me, the woman equivalent of Jesus, the woman who is the First Daughter of God that came to your world and didn’t even get a look in. The Creator Daughter who was merely cast aside as being nothing, ‘a woman of ill repute’, or a woman with her mind full of demons. And so you all look to Jesus and wait for his return, not giving two hoots about me. You’re not also awaiting my return. And then you idolise and worship his mother - the wrong Mary, and again it’s all sticking it up me saying you Mary Magdalene are no one, you are nothing, we don’t want you - the woman truth you are; and who do you think you are, and who are you anyway, ‘Jesus’ most beloved disciple’, what does that mean. You’re just in the way Mary Magdalene, we’re not going to listen to you; just as the men apostles refused to listen to me and accept me as being Jesus’ equal, for had they, then everything would have been different. But no, they shat all over me and I took it all because I wasn’t going to interfere with anyone, and so my place has been relegated to the sidelines in the Biblical Story, and yet it’s to ME you all need to look to uncover the very truth of your evilness. And if you don’t, if you don’t fully embrace me like Samantha has, and then embrace Jesus, you will never complete your healing and release yourself from Evil’s grip and curse.
    I AM THE WAY now more now than ever before James. I am even more important in this context than is Jesus, however of course you need to embrace both of us equally should you wish to ascend Nebadon. But in the context of your self-denial and denial of truth, humanity needs to look to me far more than looking to Jesus. Jesus has revealed the truth of longing to God for the Divine Love. Now you need to look to me as I reveal the truth of looking to yourself through your feelings for the truth of your soul. And even though it is required and necessary for the Avonal pair to come and complete the picture adding their Spirits of Truth to Jesus’ and mine, still that’s all only to help people and the mind spirits come to Jesus and myself in the proper and right way. And most importantly, to come to ME, to fully embrace me so you will fully embrace my Spirit of Truth. For as I’ve said before, unless you do you won’t be able to grow fully in truth, you won’t be able to fully complete your healing, so you won’t be able to fully heal yourself of your evilness and untruth. And it’s as simple of that. Fully open up to all I am saying, all I have told you, and welcome it, and look to your feelings as I have said to lead you into the deeper hidden truths of yourself, and like Samantha is demonstrating, that will lead you into the truth of the feminine and masculine relationship within yourself, with each other, with Jesus and myself, and then ultimately with the Mother and Father.
And there is no point trying to jump over me by going instead straight to the Mother and Father. Continue to cancel me out at your peril. And one won’t truly be able to embrace the Mother unless one truly embraces me, this being what you did personally James all those years ago.

Yes I can understand that now Mary. As you know, and as I remember, it always bugged me the lack of the feminine, I just couldn’t understand why everything was so masculine when there were also women in the world and not just men. I guess it was one good thing about being so heavily indoctrinated into women being the best and the good ones by mum.

Yes, and although perverted in how she instilled this in you, still it served a purpose leading you to being open to me and the whole feeling side of life as represented by Marion when you met her. And it allowed you to look to women for help and guidance so you didn’t reject me or Marion when we started to speak about the deeper truths, and as the pain of your feelings started to come up in you.

So is that why you are so obviously partial to Samantha because she so readily ‘resonates’ with you.

Yes, she has completely accepted me, puts me first, then looks to Jesus and her Mother and Father, just it needs to be done should one seek the way out of their evilness. You were writing to her how women are the true power holders, and you understand how they are true spiritual leaders, so they hold the true spiritual power, but it will only be harnessed or unleashed as they fully embrace me. And although they have to embrace me through you, as Marion is not to be my ‘voice’, she being her own distinct voice, so that is what has to be. So women and men who are genuinely seeking the truth of themselves will find the truth of me through you, which will in turn lead them to find the truth of themselves through their feminine, through their feelings.
    You are conceived in the womb of a woman, you are born onto the breast of a woman, you are nurtured through your early forming years mainly by women, and so your spiritual advancement will begin with the feminine - by wholly embracing it, and I represent its pinnacle expression in Nebadon because I am the Daughter of Truth.
And Samantha is showing you just how much one can feel my Spirit of Truth with them, for she feels as if in some way I am with her personally, which in the truth of my ‘being with her in spirit’ is true, as my Spirit of Truth, the very essence of my spirit, of my truth, of me, is with her.
    And for her my Spirit of Truth is going to ‘burn’ within her right through the remainder of her life. And it will act as a purifying light, steadily bringing to light within her the truth of herself through her feelings, just as she has said is happening to her. And there will be other women to follow her, who will also experience such a burning need to be with me, and these will be in a way my true disciples, those truth women (and men) who will dedicate their lives to me as they dedicate their lives to uncovering the truth of themselves through their feelings. They will feel wholly aligned with me, and I will meet them all when they come over into spirit so they will be able to put a face to the knowing of who I am that they’ve always felt.
    And these people will be the true chosen ones who will ‘go the whole way’ feeling the light of my Spirit of Truth as being their principle guiding light.
    And then there will be other people who will still embrace me and understand my importance as you have revealed James, however they will not feel so passionate about being with me; and some will feel very passionate about Jesus, and others about us both, and yet others simply about their Mother and Father. There will people and mind spirits of all kinds aligning themselves with all the different aspects of it, and in time there will even be other men and women passionately aligning themselves with you, and with Marion, and with both of you, all because of the work you are doing.

And there will be people who hate us...

Yes, as there are people who hate and despise Jesus and myself. Just as there will be people and mind spirits who will hate and despise these passionate people who will be so committed to the pursuit of truth. But in the end everyone will become committed to truth because you are all truth-loving souls, and not as you currently are being truth-denying souls. So in the end there will be no hatred because all will be seeking to live true through their feelings.

So really it’s the Light of Mary Magdalene we all should be praying for to come again. To come as it should have come.

Yes, and it has come through you James, and that is enough, for as Samantha is showing, from you it can be passed to her. It was already within her, only she needed it to be fully ignited which is still happening to her, and now that has begun, now that she’s undergone her spiritual baptism of light by embracing the truth you have revealed, so she will continue to grow and advance in truth as she progresses through her healing.

Mary I can imagine some people reading this and not feeling so passionate about you as Samantha obviously does, and then wondering what’s wrong with them and why don’t they feel so fired up about you and it all.

It’s not for them James, they will feel fired up in their own way as they work on themselves uncovering the truth through their feelings. It doesn’t matter that some people will feel passionate about Jesus or myself, it only matters that one feels passionate about uncovering the truth of themselves through their feelings. And their lives I can assure you won’t be any less than will Samantha’s; it’s not about comparing and judging yourselves against each other, it’s just different for everyone and for everyone to find their own way. And in the end, as you all ascend Nebadon and then move out toward Paradise, you will all feel equal in your passion for truth, and equal in your love for yourselves, just as you’ll feel equal in the love of each other.
    And I will add James that one should see this stage of their spiritual life, that being a resident of Nebadon, as a whole, by which I mean, see your life in the negative and the healing of it, and then living as a Celestial spirit as you complete your ascent of Nebadon, as a whole. So whilst on Earth you might not feel that passionate and inspired about the truth or yourself or even the Mother and Father or Jesus and myself, yet you feel enough to continue to work on yourself doing your soul-healing or feeling-healing. But in time, and once you have finished your healing, I assure you you will feel very passionate and inspired about it all.

I don’t feel very inspired by any of it. I thought I did during various stages of my healing over the years, and I felt very excited about it all at the beginning, before I knew what I was in for in my healing, but lately I even feel envious of Samantha’s passion and the constant drive in her and all her incredible experiences she’s having. I feel like my healing has ground any inspiration and passion well and truly out of me. I hardly feel anything lately, just more of the same old bad feelings.

It’s there James, only simmering underneath the weight of your pain and suffering. As you become truer to it you’re allowing yourself to feel it more, so your inspiration and passion for the truth has been somewhat diminished so it might seem, but it hasn’t, it’s still there, only it’s vital that it doesn’t carry you away taking your mind off all the bad feelings you need to allow yourself to embrace. So you feel crushed and all but life-less as that’s how you felt in the womb and as you were born, all adding up to feel how you felt when you got hit in the face by the half-brick. And adding further to how you felt when you nearly died from your illnesses, all being how your parents made you feel. They didn’t allow you to feel any passion or inspiration from your feelings, they squashed that all out of you, and so that’s how you’ve been feeling this past year and will continue to feel as you are ground down into the full pain and horror of all you went through. But once that has been worked through and your healing is completed, have no worries, passion and inspiration will return in copious amounts because you will feel like you have been born anew, and so being like an uninterfered with child and one who is fully in love with the passion and light and sheer thrill of life. It will all return to you, to both you and Marion, making you feel how you should have felt as a passionate and truth-wanting-to-know child.
    And with that I will go now James. Thank you for allowing me to write with you this evening, it has been good for me to voice my truth even more passionately and intensely through you. Until next time, goodnight and we’ll speak soon. All my love to you James - Mary M.

I’ve been feeling ratshit and more of - what’s the point. What is my point, the point of me - my existence. I sure don’t feel like I have a point. So I’ve not felt like posting anything. And I’ve been so angry, confused about why I do certain things and hating how I’ve imbibed so it seems every yuk way my parents were.

Further to this thread Sam and what we’ve been talking about, commenting on something Marion and I read in a book concerning a woman and her love for her babies, Marion said:

So many mothers adore babies - and their babies, but when those adorable little cute and cuddly babies start to become mobile challenging their mothers then they no longer like their children so much. So as long as such people can have absolute power over their babies they love them, but once the child starts to assert its power, forget it. So the ‘so loving’ parents start coming down hard on their children, and the mother laments her lost power wanting another baby, never wanting her child to grow out of its baby-ness. I want my power back!

It’s not confusing at all Sam. It’s all very real so far as I’m concerned - real and true. And what’s most important about all you’ve said for me is that you’re living it, you are with your children, you’ve been an ‘old way’ mother and are now becoming a ‘new way’ mother. I’ve only been able to speculate and theorise about such things, not being a parent, so through you I’m seeing a lot of what I’ve thought being put into practice.

And what Marion said today goes along with what you said about yourself and your relationships with your friends.

Marion: If you put your relationship with another person first, then it’s highly unlikely that you’ll want to keep expressing all your feelings to uncover the truth of yourself, for fear that if you do, you and or your partner will change bringing about the end of your relationship. However if you want to live true to yourself, so having only a true relationship with yourself, then you will strive to express all you feel and hang the relationship with your partner. If it ends, so be it, as it was not the important one - you are.