Wilderness
Sept 5, 2014 2:06:34 GMT 10
Post by desire2bme on Sept 5, 2014 2:06:34 GMT 10
Dear Child,
Your prayers have been heard. Your desire for Wholeness to Be will not be denied. The truths you long to see about yourself in your current condition are ones that although in one part of yourself you are ready for, another lives fighting tooth and nail. It could be no other way. For generations the deep wounds of the mother and the father have lived at home peacefully...at rest...in the hearts of men and women who have been afraid to allow them to become conscious. The feelings that must be felt and allowed as the truth of these wounds are revealed are those that are primal - not the sort that those needing to keep wearing the mask of "good and loving, caring and kind" can permit.
The soul work entailed to Become can be done no other place than in the wilderness. Wilderness for some may be in a place where they are surrounded by many and for others in a geographic place of seclusion from the many others. As this points out, the wilderness is not a certain local, but a place of decision within your own soul to become willing to feel the wild-ness within yourself and the pain and isolation of all the years you have been cut off from feeling into all it contains.
No outer authority can move you toward your own many deaths that come with the territory of choosing to stay in your own soul womb wilderness. For a greater portion of your life, you have placed your own ability to say a solid YES or NO upon others outside of yourself and have been living out as that powerless child who was not looked after. With no parent to truly see and hear you, you were not drawn out of yourself. No one was available to show you it is safe to "come out as you are" offering you faces of welcome and wonderment of the experience of watching what would unfold day by day. You learned to wait upon authority figures living under their spoken and unspoken rules as you projected your own permission to unfold upon them.
And so here you are taking back all of the power you had packaged up in your projections upon those authority figures in your life. Your prayers now for longing for the truth about these timeless ageless mother/father wounds in you will now be revealed to you personally, no longer through your old lens of expecting an authority figure to bring them to light for you. There must also come your YES to be willing to feel all of the primal rage and pain that has been residing within you as you have been waiting upon others to be the parent you never had. This place, this bubbling cauldron of dark emotions is not a little pit stop you drop into once or twice. It could never be expressed and expelled out of you in one big wallop. You must become willing to call this place home and develop a warm heart toward it. It is your very own crucible where your many exorcisms take place.
A "piece of cake" or a "cake walk" this is not...this call of the wild you are welcoming. It is the most personal possession you have been given to do with as you please. And it pleases me to see you desire now to awake these sleeping dragons full of raging fires, here to further unthaw all that has become concrete false concept in your life. Keep asking, keep longing for the truth, my wee little pirate. Your desire for Wholeness to Be is being realized.
Your prayers have been heard. Your desire for Wholeness to Be will not be denied. The truths you long to see about yourself in your current condition are ones that although in one part of yourself you are ready for, another lives fighting tooth and nail. It could be no other way. For generations the deep wounds of the mother and the father have lived at home peacefully...at rest...in the hearts of men and women who have been afraid to allow them to become conscious. The feelings that must be felt and allowed as the truth of these wounds are revealed are those that are primal - not the sort that those needing to keep wearing the mask of "good and loving, caring and kind" can permit.
The soul work entailed to Become can be done no other place than in the wilderness. Wilderness for some may be in a place where they are surrounded by many and for others in a geographic place of seclusion from the many others. As this points out, the wilderness is not a certain local, but a place of decision within your own soul to become willing to feel the wild-ness within yourself and the pain and isolation of all the years you have been cut off from feeling into all it contains.
No outer authority can move you toward your own many deaths that come with the territory of choosing to stay in your own soul womb wilderness. For a greater portion of your life, you have placed your own ability to say a solid YES or NO upon others outside of yourself and have been living out as that powerless child who was not looked after. With no parent to truly see and hear you, you were not drawn out of yourself. No one was available to show you it is safe to "come out as you are" offering you faces of welcome and wonderment of the experience of watching what would unfold day by day. You learned to wait upon authority figures living under their spoken and unspoken rules as you projected your own permission to unfold upon them.
And so here you are taking back all of the power you had packaged up in your projections upon those authority figures in your life. Your prayers now for longing for the truth about these timeless ageless mother/father wounds in you will now be revealed to you personally, no longer through your old lens of expecting an authority figure to bring them to light for you. There must also come your YES to be willing to feel all of the primal rage and pain that has been residing within you as you have been waiting upon others to be the parent you never had. This place, this bubbling cauldron of dark emotions is not a little pit stop you drop into once or twice. It could never be expressed and expelled out of you in one big wallop. You must become willing to call this place home and develop a warm heart toward it. It is your very own crucible where your many exorcisms take place.
A "piece of cake" or a "cake walk" this is not...this call of the wild you are welcoming. It is the most personal possession you have been given to do with as you please. And it pleases me to see you desire now to awake these sleeping dragons full of raging fires, here to further unthaw all that has become concrete false concept in your life. Keep asking, keep longing for the truth, my wee little pirate. Your desire for Wholeness to Be is being realized.
